In the past few weeks I have come in contact with some ladies and looked as things were starting to pick up for me... getting some dating in and maybe finding the "one." I just recently received another "thanx but no thanx" emails... which doesn't bother me anymore... I've gotten a bunch of them and it's useless to even dwell on it. Plus, it was only one date. She was a good looking woman and someone I could have probably gotten really into... first impressions, I was awestruck. But... time to move on, or as my good friend Nikki tells me... "NEXT!!!"
One thing I've learned from dating is learning more about me. Learning what I'm really looking for, what I really want and sometimes that can be quite scary. You figure you find what your looking for and yet, you keep wondering... is what I HAD what I wanted all along? It's really hard to say, because... and it's all happened to us, we get desperate for the physical part of the relationship and if it was good at first and died.... we fall back into that trap... but we talk our selves into "well, maybe things have changed... times are different, grown up..." whatever the reason is... but we talk ourselves into thinking like this. But sometimes it works... and works well, but I've honestly never really considered that to be a possibility. "If you love and let go, it will come back..." only in poetry and TV. Do I sound jaded???
I sat with a really good friend of mine today talking about the world and how things are and got on the topic of dating. The topic of "stop looking, and it'll fall into place." It has worked for some of my friends, but I mean... if you stop "looking" then aren't you in all respects not trying anymore? And how are you supposed to know when you don't even try? I've tried this aspect of dating and I just can't do it. I did take a month or two off from trying but I was still searching... So in actual fact... I just slowed down my search...
Dating is taking its toll on me... for real. I'm really getting tired of looking, trying to find that "one," trying to find what I want and who I want it with. Ideally, I'd like to come home tomorrow after work and find the woman of my dreams standing at my front door asking for directions or something and just happen to fall in love, happily ever after. Well, I know that will never happen, and I know that I'll never stop looking. Even though I'm tired of looking, I'm still going to. Why? It's because it's what I have to do... Just can't fall off a horse and not get back on again... You gotta search through the chaff to find the wheat (yea, I've used that once before, but I liked the analogy so I'm using it again). *Sigh*...
~Chris
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Me and a dream...
So, lately I've been wondering what a guy, like me, should do with his time, where to spend his money and should include as a hobby. Well, looking at a bigger picture I'm wondering why I'm really sweating this really trivial stuff.
I'm reading a novel series by W.E.B. Griffin called the Honour Bound series. It's 3 books all about a WW2 OSS mission to disrupt u-boat replenishing in Argentine waters as, I'm unsure if it's fiction or real or not, Argentina is neutral. The main character, in the 2nd book, inherits a HUGE estancia (Spanish for ranch/farm) from his father (who unfortunately gets killed in the first 10 pages)... they go on to talk about ranch hands, houses for the employee's, and even a church plus a small grass runway. The ranch next door, is roughly 80,000 plus hectares. It's a good series and I've been enjoying this authors books and have started a collection. Thanks dad for introducing me to this author!!
So, where does this leave me and my dream? I don't imagine to have a spread that big, nor do I plan to have servants and my own church. But what I WOULD like to have is my own piece of sky, land... to be away from the big city and enjoy life to the fullest extent. I want to lead a peaceful existence where when you ask for help, someone doesn't have "other plans."
What am I talking about mainly... where do I plan to have this... piece of sky, land or whatever it is I dream of. Ideally, I'd love to have an average of roughly anywhere between 20 and 80 acers, around max, an hour away from a big city and maybe 20 to 10 minutes away from a small town. I want a homestead as well... modest naturally... I want to know what it's like to work hard for a living, to know what it's like to feel like I've accomplished something and feel proud and useful that I have. Along with the homestead, I'd like to have a couple of horses around, and maybe a small little hobby farm like sheep or something small or not. I also want a family of about 2 or 3, to teach them responsibilities and priorities.
Believe me when I say that I had a completely different direction to where this blog was going to go (I gave up calling it a *message thinggy*, it's easier to type blog... *sigh*)... but reading my book I realized that this had to take a seriously different direction. Now that I've covered about 2 of the 5 "W'"s and the 1 "H", now all that's left is Who, Where and When. Sad to say, I couldn't tell ya. I'm hoping to find myself a farm girl as she knows about hard work and could teach me a thing or two about it. Where? Well, land is cheaper the farther north you go... maybe Ft. Saskatchewan NE of Edmonton... closer to home and to mom and dad as well. Now, as for When... that's the tricky part. I'm in no real position to be buying land, especially since the oil sands are gaining and gaining in popularity, especially since they are discovering oil farther and farther south and east.
I don't know where I'm going to end up, or what's going to happen in my future, but I do believe in destiny and a reason for everything. It is a dream, and something I think I'll end up working towards, if not 20 acers, maybe 5 but this is totally something that I want to have or end up with. I don't know where anyone else's dream ends up but I hope they are as grand as ever and that your working towards them.
~Chris
I'm reading a novel series by W.E.B. Griffin called the Honour Bound series. It's 3 books all about a WW2 OSS mission to disrupt u-boat replenishing in Argentine waters as, I'm unsure if it's fiction or real or not, Argentina is neutral. The main character, in the 2nd book, inherits a HUGE estancia (Spanish for ranch/farm) from his father (who unfortunately gets killed in the first 10 pages)... they go on to talk about ranch hands, houses for the employee's, and even a church plus a small grass runway. The ranch next door, is roughly 80,000 plus hectares. It's a good series and I've been enjoying this authors books and have started a collection. Thanks dad for introducing me to this author!!
So, where does this leave me and my dream? I don't imagine to have a spread that big, nor do I plan to have servants and my own church. But what I WOULD like to have is my own piece of sky, land... to be away from the big city and enjoy life to the fullest extent. I want to lead a peaceful existence where when you ask for help, someone doesn't have "other plans."
What am I talking about mainly... where do I plan to have this... piece of sky, land or whatever it is I dream of. Ideally, I'd love to have an average of roughly anywhere between 20 and 80 acers, around max, an hour away from a big city and maybe 20 to 10 minutes away from a small town. I want a homestead as well... modest naturally... I want to know what it's like to work hard for a living, to know what it's like to feel like I've accomplished something and feel proud and useful that I have. Along with the homestead, I'd like to have a couple of horses around, and maybe a small little hobby farm like sheep or something small or not. I also want a family of about 2 or 3, to teach them responsibilities and priorities.
Believe me when I say that I had a completely different direction to where this blog was going to go (I gave up calling it a *message thinggy*, it's easier to type blog... *sigh*)... but reading my book I realized that this had to take a seriously different direction. Now that I've covered about 2 of the 5 "W'"s and the 1 "H", now all that's left is Who, Where and When. Sad to say, I couldn't tell ya. I'm hoping to find myself a farm girl as she knows about hard work and could teach me a thing or two about it. Where? Well, land is cheaper the farther north you go... maybe Ft. Saskatchewan NE of Edmonton... closer to home and to mom and dad as well. Now, as for When... that's the tricky part. I'm in no real position to be buying land, especially since the oil sands are gaining and gaining in popularity, especially since they are discovering oil farther and farther south and east.
I don't know where I'm going to end up, or what's going to happen in my future, but I do believe in destiny and a reason for everything. It is a dream, and something I think I'll end up working towards, if not 20 acers, maybe 5 but this is totally something that I want to have or end up with. I don't know where anyone else's dream ends up but I hope they are as grand as ever and that your working towards them.
~Chris
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Me... and Facebook...
Facebook to me was inevitable. I'm sorry to say that it hasn't been one of the better things that I've ever done or signed up for. Regardless if it's free or the amount of people that you can get in contact with... it's evil. All intents and purposes... e-v-i-l.
Why do I say that? Well, I have come in contact with a number of people I've worked with in the past and have even gone to school with. It's nice to see that most of the people I remember from high school and from previous work experiences are doing quite well (some more than others *clears throat*).
Just so you know, the unfortunate part right now is that I'm going to rant mostly... so be forewarned. One thing that really "grinds my gears" is all these people who I've worked with/socialized with in the past, they will add you as a friend and you write a message to them on their wall and you receive nothing back. I know it's just a basic message saying "hey, haven't talked/seen you in a while, how's things going?" and get nothing back. I mean... wholy crap, if you had no intention of wanting to chat with me, then don't accept me as a friend on facebook.
I do realize that this is a fad, like MySpace or any other sites that are out there... but I mean... come on. How hard is it to reply? You briefly look on THEIR wall and you see that they are conversing with others, why not you? The only thing I could ever think of... and if you have an idea, please... feel free to share... is that they don't want to hurt your feelings. WHAT??!?!?!!! you say? Yes... it sucks to the point of... *ugh* or *sigh* but really... what CAN we do about it? Nothing. That's right... nothing. If you receive nothing back.... um... at all... then just remove them as a friend... because really... even if you haven't even received a joke from them in the "mass mail jokes" culture... then where do you really stand with that person(s).
Anyway... that's all I really had to say. For the most part, I don't have a problem with it... but it was just one little point that really got to me for some reason. I am happy though, to get in touch with some old friends and see how well they are doing for themselves. I do have my blog address posted on facebook (I hardly doubt anyone has read or will read this anyway) but if you have taken SOME initiative to take a peek... thanks!! :) And... LEAVE A MESSAGE ON MY WALL!!!...lol
Later
~Chris
Why do I say that? Well, I have come in contact with a number of people I've worked with in the past and have even gone to school with. It's nice to see that most of the people I remember from high school and from previous work experiences are doing quite well (some more than others *clears throat*).
Just so you know, the unfortunate part right now is that I'm going to rant mostly... so be forewarned. One thing that really "grinds my gears" is all these people who I've worked with/socialized with in the past, they will add you as a friend and you write a message to them on their wall and you receive nothing back. I know it's just a basic message saying "hey, haven't talked/seen you in a while, how's things going?" and get nothing back. I mean... wholy crap, if you had no intention of wanting to chat with me, then don't accept me as a friend on facebook.
I do realize that this is a fad, like MySpace or any other sites that are out there... but I mean... come on. How hard is it to reply? You briefly look on THEIR wall and you see that they are conversing with others, why not you? The only thing I could ever think of... and if you have an idea, please... feel free to share... is that they don't want to hurt your feelings. WHAT??!?!?!!! you say? Yes... it sucks to the point of... *ugh* or *sigh* but really... what CAN we do about it? Nothing. That's right... nothing. If you receive nothing back.... um... at all... then just remove them as a friend... because really... even if you haven't even received a joke from them in the "mass mail jokes" culture... then where do you really stand with that person(s).
Anyway... that's all I really had to say. For the most part, I don't have a problem with it... but it was just one little point that really got to me for some reason. I am happy though, to get in touch with some old friends and see how well they are doing for themselves. I do have my blog address posted on facebook (I hardly doubt anyone has read or will read this anyway) but if you have taken SOME initiative to take a peek... thanks!! :) And... LEAVE A MESSAGE ON MY WALL!!!...lol
Later
~Chris
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Where does a guy put his time and money???
Ok, so... I know I haven't written a blog in so long, and many of you haven't seen any real updates about what's been going on and how things are going... To be honest, I've had a real depressing month. There wasn't much that went on that I could joke and be jovial about. I refuse to write something negative or depressing on this blog and would like to keep it that way. Most of what I've had to say have been rants... not raves unfortunately. I haven't forgotten about my blog... just nothing really worth writing about lately.
So, a new month and new things to chat about. I've actually come up to quite a frustrating dilemma at the moment. I've come to a new hobby, of which I don't do enough, but enjoy what I do.... yes yes yes... it's the gun thing and I'm actually looking at a new weapon as we speak... although I will need to get my FAC/PAL before I do anything else, of which adds to my frustration. I'll elaborate...
I'm trying to find something that can occupy my time. I don't really have a woman to call my own, so I'm looking for a project to put my money and time into... something to be proud to say... "Yeeaaaaa.... I did that..." I have so much I WANT to do, but so little money, or even a place to do most of what I want to do. I've narrowed down my ideas to 4 things mostly (ok, thinking about it...5...lol). 3 require a place and money, and 2 is almost instantaneous gratification from where I sit now, financially and location wise (meaning, I can do most, if not all of it, in my apartment).
1. I've got a 1966 Chevy 2 that my dad and I own that I'd like to resto-mod into a sleeper (read: bigger motor, better drive train, all in a 4-door family car)
2. I have a friend who owns a dune buggy that doesn't require a whole lot of work, but needs a new motor (rebuild myself or buy a used motor just to get it running and driving) plus needs to be road legal. Princess Auto may have a lot of the stuff I need, but it all still requires a place and money to do it.
3. I want to get my class 6 license, ride motor bikes and eventually buy my own and maybe get out and meet some new people.
4. I have 2 bicycles that I want to customize and make it look cool and enjoy riding. Some of the parts are quite pricey but easier to work on and in the long run... more instantaneous gratification that it's done and can ride it asap... and can be done in my apartment.
5. Ok, the last but not least that's been running through my mind... my guns. Yea, I know... it's an expensive hobby, and to me, it's a lot of fun to go to the range and kill some paper targets. I'd like to expand my collection and eventually have my dad go with me to the range with me and have fun. Guns are expensive themselves, the ammunition isn't cheap either for the guns that I do have.
Those are the options that I've given myself. There is a TONNE of other shit that I would really love to do but those are the more attainable ones, the areas where I believe I would show most of my passion in. I've even thought of combining a couple of them together. I am coming to the realization that some of those won't happen right away, it may take years for me to get to where I want to be to even start some of these projects. And it would probably take years for me to get to some of them done. Which sucks because I REALLY want to do this NOW...lol Not tomorrow, or the next day... NOW!!..lol
Ah well, I was always told that listing things out really helps find out what you want to do and where you want to go. The pros and cons so to speak. And I think the decision has pretty much sorted it self out just now... *sigh* As to what I'm gonna do... you'll have to wait and see, 'cause really... I've only made a decision on what to do... what I'm gonna do next... well... that could be any ones guess really...
Oh, before I cut this novel off at it's knee's... I saw Transformers on Friday night.... man... if you ever watched that show religiously like I did when I was a kid... GO SEE IT... DO IT NOW!!! Oh yea... that brings me to point #6... the 52" Plasma including surround sound for the Transformers movie that I'm going to buy in the next year or so.... :D
Later
~Chris
So, a new month and new things to chat about. I've actually come up to quite a frustrating dilemma at the moment. I've come to a new hobby, of which I don't do enough, but enjoy what I do.... yes yes yes... it's the gun thing and I'm actually looking at a new weapon as we speak... although I will need to get my FAC/PAL before I do anything else, of which adds to my frustration. I'll elaborate...
I'm trying to find something that can occupy my time. I don't really have a woman to call my own, so I'm looking for a project to put my money and time into... something to be proud to say... "Yeeaaaaa.... I did that..." I have so much I WANT to do, but so little money, or even a place to do most of what I want to do. I've narrowed down my ideas to 4 things mostly (ok, thinking about it...5...lol). 3 require a place and money, and 2 is almost instantaneous gratification from where I sit now, financially and location wise (meaning, I can do most, if not all of it, in my apartment).
1. I've got a 1966 Chevy 2 that my dad and I own that I'd like to resto-mod into a sleeper (read: bigger motor, better drive train, all in a 4-door family car)
2. I have a friend who owns a dune buggy that doesn't require a whole lot of work, but needs a new motor (rebuild myself or buy a used motor just to get it running and driving) plus needs to be road legal. Princess Auto may have a lot of the stuff I need, but it all still requires a place and money to do it.
3. I want to get my class 6 license, ride motor bikes and eventually buy my own and maybe get out and meet some new people.
4. I have 2 bicycles that I want to customize and make it look cool and enjoy riding. Some of the parts are quite pricey but easier to work on and in the long run... more instantaneous gratification that it's done and can ride it asap... and can be done in my apartment.
5. Ok, the last but not least that's been running through my mind... my guns. Yea, I know... it's an expensive hobby, and to me, it's a lot of fun to go to the range and kill some paper targets. I'd like to expand my collection and eventually have my dad go with me to the range with me and have fun. Guns are expensive themselves, the ammunition isn't cheap either for the guns that I do have.
Those are the options that I've given myself. There is a TONNE of other shit that I would really love to do but those are the more attainable ones, the areas where I believe I would show most of my passion in. I've even thought of combining a couple of them together. I am coming to the realization that some of those won't happen right away, it may take years for me to get to where I want to be to even start some of these projects. And it would probably take years for me to get to some of them done. Which sucks because I REALLY want to do this NOW...lol Not tomorrow, or the next day... NOW!!..lol
Ah well, I was always told that listing things out really helps find out what you want to do and where you want to go. The pros and cons so to speak. And I think the decision has pretty much sorted it self out just now... *sigh* As to what I'm gonna do... you'll have to wait and see, 'cause really... I've only made a decision on what to do... what I'm gonna do next... well... that could be any ones guess really...
Oh, before I cut this novel off at it's knee's... I saw Transformers on Friday night.... man... if you ever watched that show religiously like I did when I was a kid... GO SEE IT... DO IT NOW!!! Oh yea... that brings me to point #6... the 52" Plasma including surround sound for the Transformers movie that I'm going to buy in the next year or so.... :D
Later
~Chris
Monday, May 21, 2007
My best May long yet....
So, you all read my "realization by chris" post, well I know have something to add to that. Kinda like a "Realizations by Chris... Part 2" only with something to add to it. So, my best friend Nathan read that post and he said that he had totally forgotten about it until I brought it up. Those were good days, and they were memorable days as well.
This weekend was no less memorable than any other cruise we've had, just that this one was done at the start of cruising season and my good first cruise in a little under 3 years I figure and after that first post... I was itching to get back in the saddle and head out back on Whyte, and get back with my riding partner. What made this cruise memorable? I gave Nathan a Mohawk. Damn, for my first Mohawk, it looks pretty damn good. And it made the cruise too, it made it a lot better and with more style than we could have hoped for.
The cruise was great, we stopped at a place called Dadeo's and had Catfish fingers with sweet potato fries, and for our final circuit on Whyte before we hit up 109th to get back over the river... we did what Nathan wanted to do... took up the outside lane for just us... we weren't too slow, not slow enough for people to pass us too quickly... And as per normal, we got the head turns from our bikes. That part I love... Both Nathan and I were surprised that, even though as out of riding condition I was, I was still able to keep up and I really wasn't all that sore the next day. My ass was though, but only 'cause it's gotten soft.
Your right Nathan, gonna have to keep riding, even if it is boring and only 20 min... gotta do it.
Later
~Chris
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
What to do, What to do...
So, here I sit wondering... what peaks my interest? What gets me moving, what puts a huge f*****n' smile on my face every time I do it? Well... women mostly, but I can't really classify that as a hobby for me... for some... yes. Me... no. What I'm really getting at here is... what can I do for a hobby???
I've tried to think of a couple of things, and have had some friends try to help me out with this but really... nothing has really grabbed me so to speak. I'll run a couple of ideas by you and let you know how they've failed in that respect other than that I've tried.
1. Singles Dog Walking: Well, for obvious reasons this one can't work. For one, you need a dog, of which I am lacking right off the bat. Can't have a dog so... yea.
2. R/C Car racing: Well, I did my research played with my R/C truck twice and found out how much work you had to do to it to keep it running good and if I even wanted to race it, how much MORE work I'd have to do to do. Plus, I put bad fuel in it once and blew the nitro motor. That was a $200 mistake. I've got, including the truck, $1200 wrapped up in it plus magazines that would go with it as well. I'll give it away for $600... I think if it were electric, I would have had a LOT more fun with it, but as it stands... seriously... $600... Any takers???
3. Computer geek: Ok, yea I enjoy playing around with my computer, enhancing it, having fun playing the odd game on it, turning it into the be-all-end-all media centre for my home needs, put movies on it, use it as my TV/recorder and everything. The only problem? It's not a very social hobby. I'm not bashing computer geeks or gamers or whatever else... but I like seeing the sunrise if I get up early, not playing a game all night deciding to go to bed at 7am. Sorry...
4. Guns: Yes, I said it and it's been in my rants before... I do enjoy playing around with guns and I go out about once a month with my buddy and put a bunch of rounds down range, the only problem, like #2, it's very expensive. For instance, my .303 English rounds for my Lee Enfield are $1 a round, and it takes longer to buy 20 rounds than it does to put them down range. My buddy told me that when he goes down range, he usually goes through $100... well, I gave him $40 that day and I do have a lot of fun when I do it... but I don't think it's something I could do ALL the time... ya know? If there was an out door range I could go to, that would be different... Plus I need a license, locks, lockers, permits, registrations... it all adds up.
These are just a few, and a few of the problems that I'm going through. I'm all ears at the moment for suggestions. One last one before I sign off for the evening... I do like my biking and manufacturing custom bicycles... I'm just lacking the place to do it, the people to do it with, and well.... money. All of the things above come with a price, some less than another but I'm trying to pay down some bills and well... it's tough to have fun when you can't afford some of the things you like to do.
Later
~Chris
I've tried to think of a couple of things, and have had some friends try to help me out with this but really... nothing has really grabbed me so to speak. I'll run a couple of ideas by you and let you know how they've failed in that respect other than that I've tried.
1. Singles Dog Walking: Well, for obvious reasons this one can't work. For one, you need a dog, of which I am lacking right off the bat. Can't have a dog so... yea.
2. R/C Car racing: Well, I did my research played with my R/C truck twice and found out how much work you had to do to it to keep it running good and if I even wanted to race it, how much MORE work I'd have to do to do. Plus, I put bad fuel in it once and blew the nitro motor. That was a $200 mistake. I've got, including the truck, $1200 wrapped up in it plus magazines that would go with it as well. I'll give it away for $600... I think if it were electric, I would have had a LOT more fun with it, but as it stands... seriously... $600... Any takers???
3. Computer geek: Ok, yea I enjoy playing around with my computer, enhancing it, having fun playing the odd game on it, turning it into the be-all-end-all media centre for my home needs, put movies on it, use it as my TV/recorder and everything. The only problem? It's not a very social hobby. I'm not bashing computer geeks or gamers or whatever else... but I like seeing the sunrise if I get up early, not playing a game all night deciding to go to bed at 7am. Sorry...
4. Guns: Yes, I said it and it's been in my rants before... I do enjoy playing around with guns and I go out about once a month with my buddy and put a bunch of rounds down range, the only problem, like #2, it's very expensive. For instance, my .303 English rounds for my Lee Enfield are $1 a round, and it takes longer to buy 20 rounds than it does to put them down range. My buddy told me that when he goes down range, he usually goes through $100... well, I gave him $40 that day and I do have a lot of fun when I do it... but I don't think it's something I could do ALL the time... ya know? If there was an out door range I could go to, that would be different... Plus I need a license, locks, lockers, permits, registrations... it all adds up.
These are just a few, and a few of the problems that I'm going through. I'm all ears at the moment for suggestions. One last one before I sign off for the evening... I do like my biking and manufacturing custom bicycles... I'm just lacking the place to do it, the people to do it with, and well.... money. All of the things above come with a price, some less than another but I'm trying to pay down some bills and well... it's tough to have fun when you can't afford some of the things you like to do.
Later
~Chris
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Unfortunate Things...
My Aunt Daisey past May 7th, I learned today at a ripe old age of 102!! This is saddening as she was always close to us and held a special place in my heart for her and always will. She was a beautiful person and even though we never really got to chat much, her presence will be missed.
Until later
~Chris
Until later
~Chris
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