Happiness....... *sigh*

Happiness def:
1. State of well-being characterized by emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy
2. Emotions experienced when in a state of well-being
3. Good luck; good fortune; prosperity
4. An agreeable feeling or condition of the soul arising from good fortune or propitious happening of any kind; the possession of those circumstances or that state of being which is attended enjoyment; the state of being happy; contentment; joyful satisfaction; felicity; blessedness
5. Fortuitous elegance; unstudied grace; -- used especially of language

So.... Are you Happy? The reason for my topic tonight is.... I asked my Wife that today. We're both in a slump, not really enjoying what we're doing for..... whatever reasons we have. For the most part, it's mearly superficial. A lot of little things are getting to us, but they do become big things if you don't deal with them I've heard. NORMALLY it's either or with us.... we can pull each other out of our slump and continue on. This time, it's hard to pull your significant other out of a slump if you yourself are in one.
It's easy enough to just buy something, or go somewhere to take your mind of the regular doldrums that COULD be your life. But, if you think about it (this is the state of mind my Wife and I are on at the moment), it's kind of like.... trying to stay up at night and you drink a Coke or something. But, after 30 min or so, the sugar high leaves and your more exhausted then when you were before you even thought about drinking Coke that would help keep you awake.
Don't get me wrong... a holiday is a great way to get away and recharge. It's what holidays are for. R&R. (But, would you want to be enjoying what your doing already and not using a holiday as a crutch??) I haven't had my FIRST holiday and yet Erin is ready for her 2nd...lol
Pressing the giant "RESET" button has been bantered around the past few months. Knowing that at this point in our lives, it's mearly a fantasy, but the thought is there. The problem with us is.... is "pressing the button" really going to help us? Or in a few months.... or years.... are we just going to end up in the same place again. My Dad has always said "A change is as good as a rest..." mind you, being in the Army, his meaning is probably more crude really...lol Is it really the answer though?
It's not like we're bored, nore are we bored with each other. Our social life is quite nice, we have some good friends to hang out with, and have fun with and whatever. We're busy though... with the flower shop and our friends. I'm sure a lot of it has to do with state of mind to. We're in a slump because we think we're in a slump. Come to think of it, I don't know if it's so much happiness, but enjoyment. We're just not enjoying what we're doing.... maybe we're just mixing up what the difference is between Enjoyment and Happiness. Whatever "this" is, we need to get out of it.

Even if happiness forgets you a little bit, never completely forget about it. ~Jacques Prévert

~Chris

Retrospections and domestications...

Wow, my last post was in 2009... August in fact. Not a worry... been really busy lately. Just the Readers Digest version... since 2009... wow... um.... ok, lets start with...... My wife and I bought a flowershop.... both quit our jobs and started something new. I'm in my 2nd year as an Appliance Service and Repair technician and the flowershop is doing great. We got married in Aug 10th, 2010 and it was the best day ever. Not too hot, not too cold, and the evening, barely any bugs. Perfect, plus I married my best friend.... what's better than that.

So, the past 10 or so months that Erin and I have been married.... no... even before we got married I've gone through a transition. I'll start this with me standing at the kitchen sink doing the dishes and it dawns on me that.... before I would have just left the dishes. One thing that I LOVE my wife for is, she doesn't let me get away with anything. ANYTHING. She has certian expectations that she has and I'm trying to do my best. And I'll freely admit that sometimes my best isn't good enough. Plus the small little things that I do, barely compare with what my wife does for me, around the house. The "un-cool" thing that I sometimes do, she askes me to do something and I'll give the big *SIGH* or roll my eyes... etc.

My goal starting from the past few months is to do things without being asked to do them... Hence doing the mountian of dishes that had accumulated over the past few days. Theres still more to do, but this journal entry had just come to me so I sat down with a beer to write this. It feels good to just, know what to do, to just do it because it had to get done.

Now, this comes from a by-product of me growing up where most of whatever had to get done, was done for me. And through bad habbit, I would just leave things until someone did them for me. Not the greatest, eh?...lol I'm getting better, I'm growing, and my wife will continually be frustrated because I'm just not "there" yet...lol But I'm working on it, and I'm enjoying the growing, personally, and as a couple.