MAN... if only I could have done that... EITHER of it...lol I think it's awesome.... and amazing to!!
~Chris
Monday, October 1, 2007
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
Oh man... check this out!!
This looks like bad porn!!! Man, this feels more than 15 years ago....
~Chris
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Adventures with Ranger Pt.1
Ok, so here I am writing this in correlation to my first attempt to customize my truck. I'm not impressed... at all. I had a thought/dream last night that they were riveted on. Well, they weren't... BUT they did have location holes in the sides of the quarter panels to locate the placard. I didn't even think of that. Oh well... Too late now.
It never even entered my mind that something like that would be there. A little advice, do some research or be properly prepared to do stuff like that...lol If I wanted to keep it like that, I'd need to weld up the holes and repaint both quarters... *sigh* Damn, was looking forward to it to... ah well... Check out the pics... hopefully you'll get to see them...
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=51829&l=25e0a&id=676600373
Next week... brakes!!
~Chris
It never even entered my mind that something like that would be there. A little advice, do some research or be properly prepared to do stuff like that...lol If I wanted to keep it like that, I'd need to weld up the holes and repaint both quarters... *sigh* Damn, was looking forward to it to... ah well... Check out the pics... hopefully you'll get to see them...
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=51829&l=25e0a&id=676600373
Next week... brakes!!
~Chris
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Moving on and leaving some things behind...
As I sit here, doing some thinking about where I've come from (more recently then "at the beginning of time" b/s) to now and wondering what has been left behind, what did I have that I no longer posses much, if not ANY interest for anymore. I was talking to my best friend last night and usually when we chat, we chat for about an hour on usual, we chat about stuff really. Just anything, but mostly cars, bikes, women, dating, family. He's like the brother I've never had and I can pretty much talk about anything and he with I.
We started talking about moving on and up. We chatted about our bike building and how our interest has wained on the subject for both of us for some months, if not years. It's true what they say, that the older you get... your toys get bigger and more expensive. Well, it's come to pass that each of us have made that progression. I don't like saying this but us and the bikes were just stepping stones in what we really wanted to do... cars. Yea, I know... it's a passion for most guys and for some, deeper (and with deeper pockets to) than others. Nathan is the type of guy who likes to get into the bare nuts and bolts of a vehicle and rebuild it so to speak. Him and his... um... old Volvo 240DL and me with my Ford Ranger. Both of our projects widely differ and differ with our skill levels to. My truck is pretty good from the get go where his Volvo needs a lot of TLC and will get it. Most of my upgrades will be bolt on parts, his will be welded on parts of metal and working on fenders and repainting.
I finally came to the conclusion this evening when I was driving around after I fueled up. I really enjoy cruising the cityscape. Nothing brought me more satisfaction and relaxation than just driving without purpose. To see the people pass by me and for me to pass by people. It's hard for me to explain but... I find it relaxing. I'm not much of a picture person, but since this truck is a new, somewhat kinda sorta, extension of me... I want to document as much of it as I can by picture. I'll be posting a majority of my photos on Facebook (I'll try and figure out how to make them public, but I'll post the good ones here), where they'll contain the major repairs to the most minor custom items. What will this be called??? Adventure with Ranger. I'll cross post with my blog entries and my Notes in Facebook. Mind you, this blog will contain more of an online diary than anything else but still, out there for all to see.
So, yea... that's where I've come from and now where I'm going. Hopefully you'll see more than just repair and customization pic's of me and my Ranger and more adventures, either city cruises or just... the truck in general...lol But for now, I'm sleepy and off to bed. I'll keep you updated, for sure.
~Chris
We started talking about moving on and up. We chatted about our bike building and how our interest has wained on the subject for both of us for some months, if not years. It's true what they say, that the older you get... your toys get bigger and more expensive. Well, it's come to pass that each of us have made that progression. I don't like saying this but us and the bikes were just stepping stones in what we really wanted to do... cars. Yea, I know... it's a passion for most guys and for some, deeper (and with deeper pockets to) than others. Nathan is the type of guy who likes to get into the bare nuts and bolts of a vehicle and rebuild it so to speak. Him and his... um... old Volvo 240DL and me with my Ford Ranger. Both of our projects widely differ and differ with our skill levels to. My truck is pretty good from the get go where his Volvo needs a lot of TLC and will get it. Most of my upgrades will be bolt on parts, his will be welded on parts of metal and working on fenders and repainting.
I finally came to the conclusion this evening when I was driving around after I fueled up. I really enjoy cruising the cityscape. Nothing brought me more satisfaction and relaxation than just driving without purpose. To see the people pass by me and for me to pass by people. It's hard for me to explain but... I find it relaxing. I'm not much of a picture person, but since this truck is a new, somewhat kinda sorta, extension of me... I want to document as much of it as I can by picture. I'll be posting a majority of my photos on Facebook (I'll try and figure out how to make them public, but I'll post the good ones here), where they'll contain the major repairs to the most minor custom items. What will this be called??? Adventure with Ranger. I'll cross post with my blog entries and my Notes in Facebook. Mind you, this blog will contain more of an online diary than anything else but still, out there for all to see.
So, yea... that's where I've come from and now where I'm going. Hopefully you'll see more than just repair and customization pic's of me and my Ranger and more adventures, either city cruises or just... the truck in general...lol But for now, I'm sleepy and off to bed. I'll keep you updated, for sure.
~Chris
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Posting for no good reason but to post...
I'm posting a blog tonight because I want to. I have no idea why, but I am. I think it's part of this having a renewed self image where I feel more confident in who I am... not necessarily where I want to go but who I am more importantly. I say that because I'm feeling a sense of accomplishment within me and this feeling came from out of the blue. I'm starting to want to get more organized and tidy where as normally I'll mention that that's what I want but rarely do anything about it. And it would get to a point where I couldn't stand it... clean like a mofo and scattered all over the place knowing I got something done but showing no signs of it, take a break to watch TV and never finish what I started constantly living in a world of clutter and disorganization.
I've started taking small amounts of time for myself around 8:30-9:00pm at night and do a small tidy. The crap part of it is that it's something I've been told countless times by my friends and family that "It only really requires 30 min a day, it makes a difference!!" It's true, that I've only really started this evening, just getting a minor thing done today made me feel a tonne better that I got that job out of the way. I'm planning on getting to work on my dining room and just getting that cleaned out. I have a bunch of stuff to give away again and I'm starting to unload a bunch of stuff that I just haven't used in SO long...
Thinking about it... I think the truck has something to do with it. I'm actually trying to keep it up and trying to keep it looking good. It's a black truck so I have my work cut out for me but I just feel more willing to keep it in shape than any of my other vehicles. I think having the truck and keeping it up has given me inspiration to do the same to my apartment. I dunno, we'll see.
~Chris
I've started taking small amounts of time for myself around 8:30-9:00pm at night and do a small tidy. The crap part of it is that it's something I've been told countless times by my friends and family that "It only really requires 30 min a day, it makes a difference!!" It's true, that I've only really started this evening, just getting a minor thing done today made me feel a tonne better that I got that job out of the way. I'm planning on getting to work on my dining room and just getting that cleaned out. I have a bunch of stuff to give away again and I'm starting to unload a bunch of stuff that I just haven't used in SO long...
Thinking about it... I think the truck has something to do with it. I'm actually trying to keep it up and trying to keep it looking good. It's a black truck so I have my work cut out for me but I just feel more willing to keep it in shape than any of my other vehicles. I think having the truck and keeping it up has given me inspiration to do the same to my apartment. I dunno, we'll see.
~Chris
Saturday, September 8, 2007
This week was a good week
Yea, it was. It all started last saturday being invited out to my buddies place for a fire, learned how one can live in a spartan atmosphere and still have fun and enjoy life. It was also nice to sit by the fire and just enjoy the evening. I get home and see my cluttered apartment and wonder why I love the clutter so much. Sure, my buddy may be a touch ADD-ish and is always clean but still. Dad came down last weekend and I was able to go through a bunch of stuff I wasn't using or would use. Next is clothing... *sigh* I'm getting there, one shelf, one hangar, one room at a time.
I've also been eating better and been feeling better as well. I really don't care if I lose the weight but, just so long as I feel good, that's all that matters. The past few weeks I've been feeling a lot better, just in general. When I was on vacation, I started wearing a magnetic necklace and bracelet and I felt something change in me. It was gradual, and I couldn't pin point it... just something. Just for the record, it was for my back...lol Well, my back still hurts but damn do I feel good!!! Having this confidence boost has made me want something for me, something that would make me feel like me again and not just doing it/having it because its economical, cheap or.... (fill in the blank).
I bought myself a 2000 Ford Ranger. Its a great truck and I'm in love again...lol I know, ya'll are wondering how one can love a truck. Well, the past few weeks I've put IMMENSE pressure on myself to find that "one"... that person to share my time with, to be with, to have fun with. I took a weekend to myself and drove back up to Edm to clear the mind and do a little soul searching. I came back mentally refreshed, and after talking with some good friends and my mom (yes, even your parents can help you back on track) to take time for me. I'm not necessarily taking a break from dating, still looking but now I've got something to keep my mind off the situation I put myself in (stressing of having no relationship.)
The truck is allowing me an outlet of my energy, put some time and money into it and have something that I've always wanted. Something that I'VE customized for ME. The bikes were cool, but not the same thing for me. Now, I've got plans for my little Ranger. Most of it I'll do myself thank you very much!!! It won't change much, but enough so that it's for me by me.
~Chris
I've also been eating better and been feeling better as well. I really don't care if I lose the weight but, just so long as I feel good, that's all that matters. The past few weeks I've been feeling a lot better, just in general. When I was on vacation, I started wearing a magnetic necklace and bracelet and I felt something change in me. It was gradual, and I couldn't pin point it... just something. Just for the record, it was for my back...lol Well, my back still hurts but damn do I feel good!!! Having this confidence boost has made me want something for me, something that would make me feel like me again and not just doing it/having it because its economical, cheap or.... (fill in the blank).
I bought myself a 2000 Ford Ranger. Its a great truck and I'm in love again...lol I know, ya'll are wondering how one can love a truck. Well, the past few weeks I've put IMMENSE pressure on myself to find that "one"... that person to share my time with, to be with, to have fun with. I took a weekend to myself and drove back up to Edm to clear the mind and do a little soul searching. I came back mentally refreshed, and after talking with some good friends and my mom (yes, even your parents can help you back on track) to take time for me. I'm not necessarily taking a break from dating, still looking but now I've got something to keep my mind off the situation I put myself in (stressing of having no relationship.)
The truck is allowing me an outlet of my energy, put some time and money into it and have something that I've always wanted. Something that I'VE customized for ME. The bikes were cool, but not the same thing for me. Now, I've got plans for my little Ranger. Most of it I'll do myself thank you very much!!! It won't change much, but enough so that it's for me by me.
I'm not much of a Ford guy, but the truck suits me. I can't wait.
~Chris
Tuesday, August 28, 2007
Ahem... hello??
That last post? Yea, I was angry and upset, sorry everyone. I've since calmed down, taken a breather and a beer and I'm ready for bed...lol I'm just stressed about the car now, who's gonna come for it now? Are the original ppl gonna be back? I'll probably have nightmares about this tonight.
The feeling of being violated though is still with me, I'll still drive my little car but I don't know how I'll feel driving it. I'll deal for now... Thanx for listening... I'd rather vent on here, than at one of my faithful friends.... again...
~Chris
The feeling of being violated though is still with me, I'll still drive my little car but I don't know how I'll feel driving it. I'll deal for now... Thanx for listening... I'd rather vent on here, than at one of my faithful friends.... again...
~Chris
THAT'S IT!! I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!
Remember me yesterday saying how tired I am of people calling me for whatever credit card or whatever survey??? Today was a bad day for me today. It all started off with me starting off my day finding out that my car had been broken in this morning. VERY early this morning. As I drove to work, I felt violated, not at ease anymore. The car felt foreign as I drove to work this morning. I made a report to the police at noon and made me feel a bit better. I at least got that done and, like I said... feeling better. But I must admit, the person/people who did it were really good and did little damage getting in (like I'll tell ya'll how they did it...)
So, what was the straw that broke the camels back tonight? Yup, Capital One (Whats in YOUR wallet?) called me. I'm tired of this shit, I'm tired of these jokers calling me 3 or 4 times a day, not leaving a message, not answering when I say hello twice but only on the 3rd time. I usually hang up after the 2nd hello, but nope... I carried on. I must be a gluten for punishment because I actually let them talk to me and frustrate me.
I'm calling Telus right after dad calls me tonight and getting an unlisted number, hopefully solving all that shit. If your one of the privileged, you'll receive the number. If not and DON'T have my cell? Guess what.... Along the vehicle front?? I'm now actively searching for something else. Plus, my dad could use my small little Cavalier. I'm cashing in my chips and gonna spend some cash...
~Chris
So, what was the straw that broke the camels back tonight? Yup, Capital One (Whats in YOUR wallet?) called me. I'm tired of this shit, I'm tired of these jokers calling me 3 or 4 times a day, not leaving a message, not answering when I say hello twice but only on the 3rd time. I usually hang up after the 2nd hello, but nope... I carried on. I must be a gluten for punishment because I actually let them talk to me and frustrate me.
I'm calling Telus right after dad calls me tonight and getting an unlisted number, hopefully solving all that shit. If your one of the privileged, you'll receive the number. If not and DON'T have my cell? Guess what.... Along the vehicle front?? I'm now actively searching for something else. Plus, my dad could use my small little Cavalier. I'm cashing in my chips and gonna spend some cash...
~Chris
Monday, August 27, 2007
Why do I do it to myself?
This has been the worst year for telemarketers for me. Normally, I keep a low profile and don't hear anything from them. Today was someone from the University of Calgary doing a survey about fitness in various areas of the city. I really had nothing to do, other than stalling from cooking dinner and dishes (as of yet, all of my dishes have not been done), so for 14 minutes I sat there answering questions with the typical "strongly agree, agree, neither agree/disagree, disagree, strongly disagree." It wasn't all that painful, and the woman spoke english.
It's staring to piss me off that I'm getting all this. I had Rogers phone me twice within 20 min of each other one evening trying to sell me the SAME home phone package, then Capital One (Whats in YOUR wallet??) called about half an hour after that. I say, sorry not interested... "Oh but sir, do you know about... ... ..." no and I don't care, but of course I'm not that rude but in my mind I give them the benefit of a pleasant, thanx but no thanx twice, but watch out for that 3rd time I WILL hang up. I will only suffer through so much.
Maybe I'm too polite, or afraid of hurting these people's feelings... fuck it now. These people are on my hit list. Maybe I'm too forgiving because these people are getting a commission on the people they get to sign up, hence the reason why they are pushy. But, get the hint after time #2 of me saying "Sorry, I'm happy with (insert company/plan) and not interested." I really don't know how many people will go through 3 times of "oh but wait and see how we can beat your other offers!!!!" I for one let them down gracefully, to let them save face. Maybe they think that since I've sat through the fast talking b/s that long, I'll actually think "hey, wait a minute, it all makes sense now, it's all so clear......."
Fuck it, I'll pay for an unlisted number.
~Chris
It's staring to piss me off that I'm getting all this. I had Rogers phone me twice within 20 min of each other one evening trying to sell me the SAME home phone package, then Capital One (Whats in YOUR wallet??) called about half an hour after that. I say, sorry not interested... "Oh but sir, do you know about... ... ..." no and I don't care, but of course I'm not that rude but in my mind I give them the benefit of a pleasant, thanx but no thanx twice, but watch out for that 3rd time I WILL hang up. I will only suffer through so much.
Maybe I'm too polite, or afraid of hurting these people's feelings... fuck it now. These people are on my hit list. Maybe I'm too forgiving because these people are getting a commission on the people they get to sign up, hence the reason why they are pushy. But, get the hint after time #2 of me saying "Sorry, I'm happy with (insert company/plan) and not interested." I really don't know how many people will go through 3 times of "oh but wait and see how we can beat your other offers!!!!" I for one let them down gracefully, to let them save face. Maybe they think that since I've sat through the fast talking b/s that long, I'll actually think "hey, wait a minute, it all makes sense now, it's all so clear......."
Fuck it, I'll pay for an unlisted number.
~Chris
Thursday, August 23, 2007
Something interesting while I was blogging...
Today, this evening, I was sitting here minding my own business, kickin' back listening to some of my old CD's that I have found from cleaning up some of my stuff that I've left back home. Minding my own business, I get a phone call from India (she said something about Asian something something surveys or something) asking about current political opinion about our current government.
I really don't care who, or which Political party, paid for this but it got me thinking that... what ever happened to keeping Canadians employed??? Again, I totally agree with the whole money savings thing and most of that stuff is probably contract based but um... if this WAS a political party asking for my opinion, wouldn't you want to keep the contracts in Canada? I mean, it was a 1-866 number so it could have come from anywhere but... I'd almost rather have a french accent than one from either India or Pakistan.
Why I took this survey is beyond me. I think it was because I was stalling making supper and didn't want to get into it knowing full well I have to do dishes afterwards...lol Anyway, I did my best trying to screw with the results and just being way beyond what they would have expected me to answer... although... maybe I fell right into their hands and answered exactly what they wanted. Meh, I like my reality better....
~Chris
I really don't care who, or which Political party, paid for this but it got me thinking that... what ever happened to keeping Canadians employed??? Again, I totally agree with the whole money savings thing and most of that stuff is probably contract based but um... if this WAS a political party asking for my opinion, wouldn't you want to keep the contracts in Canada? I mean, it was a 1-866 number so it could have come from anywhere but... I'd almost rather have a french accent than one from either India or Pakistan.
Why I took this survey is beyond me. I think it was because I was stalling making supper and didn't want to get into it knowing full well I have to do dishes afterwards...lol Anyway, I did my best trying to screw with the results and just being way beyond what they would have expected me to answer... although... maybe I fell right into their hands and answered exactly what they wanted. Meh, I like my reality better....
~Chris
Wednesday, August 22, 2007
And now for something completely different...
Yes, something COMPLETELY different. Tired of talking about myself and all that b/s. Well, ok... so I AM talking about myself, but in a TOTALLY different aspect. About... 3 weeks ago I started wearing my moms magnetic bracelet and necklace in all hopes to help with my back pain. Well, I'll tell you something...
My back still hurts... but I will say that after physio that it is 1000% better than before. Now I just have to work on this whole losing weight aspect of it but I think most of us have to deal with that as well. Anyway, back to this magnetic shit that I talked about... my back isn't much better and I don't have a clue why. I think it's more of a foot thing but until I go back to the doc's and get it checked out a bit better, it'll just have to suffer. But, I've found that I've felt..... better. I don't know if it's just psychological but my mood has improved... I'm not BOUNCING to work, but I just feel like I'm improving. Trying to eat better... maybe the same amount, just better is all, more healthier basically.
I don't know if it's the healthier living or the magnetism coursing through my body from my wrist and neck. I wanted to eat better because my buddy told me he ended up on a fast food diet working nights and felt rundown and not feeling good in general. So I took that to heart and started to eat better and DAMN... was like a light switch, but damn I'm poor now...lol But it's something to keep up with, you don't have to be SUPER healthy but, things must change.
Later
~Chris
My back still hurts... but I will say that after physio that it is 1000% better than before. Now I just have to work on this whole losing weight aspect of it but I think most of us have to deal with that as well. Anyway, back to this magnetic shit that I talked about... my back isn't much better and I don't have a clue why. I think it's more of a foot thing but until I go back to the doc's and get it checked out a bit better, it'll just have to suffer. But, I've found that I've felt..... better. I don't know if it's just psychological but my mood has improved... I'm not BOUNCING to work, but I just feel like I'm improving. Trying to eat better... maybe the same amount, just better is all, more healthier basically.
I don't know if it's the healthier living or the magnetism coursing through my body from my wrist and neck. I wanted to eat better because my buddy told me he ended up on a fast food diet working nights and felt rundown and not feeling good in general. So I took that to heart and started to eat better and DAMN... was like a light switch, but damn I'm poor now...lol But it's something to keep up with, you don't have to be SUPER healthy but, things must change.
Later
~Chris
Saturday, August 18, 2007
New things for this ol' Blog of mine...
Ok... so... I'm going to be trying some new things in the next few weeks/months. I want to change the lay-out of my blog and I want to make some changes, change what my blog means to me. I'm going to be asking for help from some of you, but hopefully it works out... but then again... it may not happen at all...lol Ah well... Anyway...
~Chris
~Chris
Wednesday, August 15, 2007
Rhymes with I'm
I'm everywhere you seem to be,
I'm the steam from your tea
The Cream in your Cheese
The Green on your Peas
The Peace to your war
I'm the fleece in your drawer
The grease on your floor
I'm the store, where you get your cigarettes at
The collector, gettin' the bigger debts back
I'm the back pack carryin' mic's and tapes
I'm the MC separate from these mice and fakes
I'm what makes your face scream
I'm the A-Team
I maybe a faint dream and maybe I'm Maybelline(sp)
I'm the man the machine, I'm your pants and jeans
I'm the damn MC with the dancing queen
I'm the Fan Teen cover, the fancy lover
I'm the guy making fun of your Nancy brother
I'm the other half, I'm drinking your mothers draft
I'm the guy that your girl wants to scrub in the bath
And I'm a laugh, a chuckle, a gupha, a snicker
I'm the autographed poster on the wall of your sister
I'm Mr. Big Boss man, hittin' you with a sauce pan
I'm the eBay auction for a mint in box "Moss Man"
I'm Hawkman, I'm Captain America
I'm rappin' in characta, I'm rappin' hysteria
I'm mappin' the area around your home look,
I'm home cooked, I'm the notes in your note book
I'm a 3-ringed binder, the G-string finder
The Louie Del Grand seeing things rhymer
I'm the smartest plough(??) and the hardest route
I'm a Marxist shout, I'm the artists doubt
I'm the media heart, I'm a scream in the dark
I'm the strange deranged fiend you meet in the park
And I'm the teeth of a shark, biting your neck
I'm the lighting exec who's like "I'm liking the set"
I'm the Mic check, I'm the one's and two's
I'm the MC having more fun than you
I'm your blunts and brew, with some gum to chew
And I'm the grunts in blue telling the bums to shoo
I'm what you want to do, when you got no dollars
I'm a rouge scholar, pro baller, phone caller
I'm all your good memories, I'm your enemies
I'm kids on internet, who keep "MSN me"
I'm the tendency to be the cursed dang hoser
I'm your worst hang over, I'm your first bang sober
I'm your virginity, I'm your purrin' kitty
I'm the guy wonderin' "He's 'Burg isn't he?"
I'm Trinity, I'm Alpha Omega, I'm the Bodega
When you first played Street Fighter 2 and beat Vega
I'm Sega, I'm Atari, I'm an RPG
I'm roast beef with a melted piece of Arby's cheese
I'm hardly pleased, I'm not impressed
I'm not takin' off my shoes 'cause I'm not your guest
I'm hot to death, I'm regrets only
I'm BYOB, I'm THE FLY HOMIE!!
YOU KNOW ME!! I'm the face you make
I'm your favourite mistake
And I'm the lady of the lake
I'm a rathe(??) you can't escape, I'm with you every time
I'm the name of the song... I'm Rhymes
-SJ, The Wordburglar
I'm the steam from your tea
The Cream in your Cheese
The Green on your Peas
The Peace to your war
I'm the fleece in your drawer
The grease on your floor
I'm the store, where you get your cigarettes at
The collector, gettin' the bigger debts back
I'm the back pack carryin' mic's and tapes
I'm the MC separate from these mice and fakes
I'm what makes your face scream
I'm the A-Team
I maybe a faint dream and maybe I'm Maybelline(sp)
I'm the man the machine, I'm your pants and jeans
I'm the damn MC with the dancing queen
I'm the Fan Teen cover, the fancy lover
I'm the guy making fun of your Nancy brother
I'm the other half, I'm drinking your mothers draft
I'm the guy that your girl wants to scrub in the bath
And I'm a laugh, a chuckle, a gupha, a snicker
I'm the autographed poster on the wall of your sister
I'm Mr. Big Boss man, hittin' you with a sauce pan
I'm the eBay auction for a mint in box "Moss Man"
I'm Hawkman, I'm Captain America
I'm rappin' in characta, I'm rappin' hysteria
I'm mappin' the area around your home look,
I'm home cooked, I'm the notes in your note book
I'm a 3-ringed binder, the G-string finder
The Louie Del Grand seeing things rhymer
I'm the smartest plough(??) and the hardest route
I'm a Marxist shout, I'm the artists doubt
I'm the media heart, I'm a scream in the dark
I'm the strange deranged fiend you meet in the park
And I'm the teeth of a shark, biting your neck
I'm the lighting exec who's like "I'm liking the set"
I'm the Mic check, I'm the one's and two's
I'm the MC having more fun than you
I'm your blunts and brew, with some gum to chew
And I'm the grunts in blue telling the bums to shoo
I'm what you want to do, when you got no dollars
I'm a rouge scholar, pro baller, phone caller
I'm all your good memories, I'm your enemies
I'm kids on internet, who keep "MSN me"
I'm the tendency to be the cursed dang hoser
I'm your worst hang over, I'm your first bang sober
I'm your virginity, I'm your purrin' kitty
I'm the guy wonderin' "He's 'Burg isn't he?"
I'm Trinity, I'm Alpha Omega, I'm the Bodega
When you first played Street Fighter 2 and beat Vega
I'm Sega, I'm Atari, I'm an RPG
I'm roast beef with a melted piece of Arby's cheese
I'm hardly pleased, I'm not impressed
I'm not takin' off my shoes 'cause I'm not your guest
I'm hot to death, I'm regrets only
I'm BYOB, I'm THE FLY HOMIE!!
YOU KNOW ME!! I'm the face you make
I'm your favourite mistake
And I'm the lady of the lake
I'm a rathe(??) you can't escape, I'm with you every time
I'm the name of the song... I'm Rhymes
-SJ, The Wordburglar
Tuesday, August 14, 2007
To Those who know and are getting to know... Me...
Hey, I guess I should come on here telling people what, I guess... what I'm all about. I have had the misfortune of someone referring to my online blog to me in a very personal email. Just to get it out in the air... everyone has a skeleton in the closet (some are still in the closet so to speak) or demons to face. We also have fears, things that scare us, things in the past that hold us back, some so much that it hampers them(us) from doing basic day to day chores, activities.
The reference was made that I have a fear of commitment (Thinking, July 28/07). Well, it's true that I MAY have a problem committing to someone. I haven't yet found that fear, or what it may be and I really do think that me being alone for this long with out something serious has hampered me being able to commit, but maybe I'm just scared of losing my independence... whatever the excuse I give, it doesn't mean that I'm not willing to face those thoughts/fears head on.
I was talking to my buddy at work about this and he said that if I was someone special, it would have been worth taking the chance and riding out the rough spots. I agree whole hearted. And probably most of you do to, but little are willing to face those demons/skeletons and it's just too easy to go back to "the norm." One of the main reasons for me to have this blog, for me to write out some of my deepest thoughts for anyone to see, is to clear them from my mind, to talk things out and maybe have someone give me some insight as to what I am thinking all along or offer suggestion. For those of you who are just getting to know me through my blog, I don't pretend, nor to I WANT to pretend to be someone I'm not. These things that I share to the online community are there for all to see (hopefully a great majority of them positive and a touch humorous).
I don't want people to think that I'm doing this for the attention, because I'm not. I'm doing this more to help me than to give someone their jollies by looking at my trials and tribulations. And if someone is doing that... meh, what do I care because if I did, I wouldn't be talking about this kind of stuff to everyone. Saying that, I don't put stuff on here that's stupid personal. Some things aren't meant for public consumption... ;)
This is just a little taste of who I am, reading regular posts, you'll have a half decent idea about who I am and what I'm about and where my mind rests. If you don't like what your reading, then don't read anymore... it's your choice.
~Chris
The reference was made that I have a fear of commitment (Thinking, July 28/07). Well, it's true that I MAY have a problem committing to someone. I haven't yet found that fear, or what it may be and I really do think that me being alone for this long with out something serious has hampered me being able to commit, but maybe I'm just scared of losing my independence... whatever the excuse I give, it doesn't mean that I'm not willing to face those thoughts/fears head on.
I was talking to my buddy at work about this and he said that if I was someone special, it would have been worth taking the chance and riding out the rough spots. I agree whole hearted. And probably most of you do to, but little are willing to face those demons/skeletons and it's just too easy to go back to "the norm." One of the main reasons for me to have this blog, for me to write out some of my deepest thoughts for anyone to see, is to clear them from my mind, to talk things out and maybe have someone give me some insight as to what I am thinking all along or offer suggestion. For those of you who are just getting to know me through my blog, I don't pretend, nor to I WANT to pretend to be someone I'm not. These things that I share to the online community are there for all to see (hopefully a great majority of them positive and a touch humorous).
I don't want people to think that I'm doing this for the attention, because I'm not. I'm doing this more to help me than to give someone their jollies by looking at my trials and tribulations. And if someone is doing that... meh, what do I care because if I did, I wouldn't be talking about this kind of stuff to everyone. Saying that, I don't put stuff on here that's stupid personal. Some things aren't meant for public consumption... ;)
This is just a little taste of who I am, reading regular posts, you'll have a half decent idea about who I am and what I'm about and where my mind rests. If you don't like what your reading, then don't read anymore... it's your choice.
~Chris
Sunday, August 12, 2007
Dreams or Goals?? Which is what now???
I've told you all about my dream of having my ranch with a couple of horses and or ranch and how I'd love to have my kids grow up there and enjoy the country life and it's peacefulness and tranquility. With each passing week, I'm realizing that it's more of a romantic notion and a more romantic way of life than what I had anticipated. I dated a girl who lived that country life, and it's not easy... and if you know me well enough... me and hard work... we don't go so well together...lol
So, now that I've realized that, what ARE my goals? Right now, I'd be happy with just finding someone and being happy with that someone. Also a goal of mine right now is to settle. I don't want to move anymore, and if you've read my previous post "Thinking"... you'll notice that I think I've finally found home. I also want to be happy with me, be happy with who I am and what I've become (it's nothing bad, just to accept the way I am). I've also got a plan in place right now that I'm hoping to stick with.
For now, I haven't given up on my ranch but I'm modifying my dream... so long as I get a 3/4 tonne diesel with a camper or trailer to be able to get out and go camping with a family.... I'd be happy with that. Even if it were a nice house in the city... I'd like to have an active family, doing something of some sort... doing touristy things or things with the family basically. I want my 2.1 kids and a dog...lol I don't know if what I'm doing is good, but for me... it's a more realistic of a dream other than reaching for the stars when you can't even get to the clouds. The only way my primary dream will have a chance is if land prices plummet... ah well...
~Chris
So, now that I've realized that, what ARE my goals? Right now, I'd be happy with just finding someone and being happy with that someone. Also a goal of mine right now is to settle. I don't want to move anymore, and if you've read my previous post "Thinking"... you'll notice that I think I've finally found home. I also want to be happy with me, be happy with who I am and what I've become (it's nothing bad, just to accept the way I am). I've also got a plan in place right now that I'm hoping to stick with.
For now, I haven't given up on my ranch but I'm modifying my dream... so long as I get a 3/4 tonne diesel with a camper or trailer to be able to get out and go camping with a family.... I'd be happy with that. Even if it were a nice house in the city... I'd like to have an active family, doing something of some sort... doing touristy things or things with the family basically. I want my 2.1 kids and a dog...lol I don't know if what I'm doing is good, but for me... it's a more realistic of a dream other than reaching for the stars when you can't even get to the clouds. The only way my primary dream will have a chance is if land prices plummet... ah well...
~Chris
Saturday, August 11, 2007
My back and me...
So, last week was my last physio visit. More for lack of funding than anything else... but I'm trying to take steps to help myself now than trying to use others to help me. I'm not one to turn help down now, nor am I one to ALWAYS be macho and never accept it either, there are times when you just have to reach out and ask. I've suffered with ever worsening back spasms right up until about 4 or 5 months ago when I started physio. It was pretty much right away that I was feeling a difference.
One thing that I'm now trying that I figured couldn't hurt. My mom gave me a magnetic bracelet and necklace and, I don't know if it's all mind over body or if they're actually doing something. One thing I do know though, is that, it's taken a few weeks, but I'm feeling a bit better, more motivated to do something than just sit around doing nothing. I'm still a little sore when I wake up in the mornings but the pain that I've had compared to the pain that I have now is NOTHING compared to what I've experienced and have lived with. So now, I'm gonna have to deal the cards I've been dealt and go with it....
~Chris
One thing that I'm now trying that I figured couldn't hurt. My mom gave me a magnetic bracelet and necklace and, I don't know if it's all mind over body or if they're actually doing something. One thing I do know though, is that, it's taken a few weeks, but I'm feeling a bit better, more motivated to do something than just sit around doing nothing. I'm still a little sore when I wake up in the mornings but the pain that I've had compared to the pain that I have now is NOTHING compared to what I've experienced and have lived with. So now, I'm gonna have to deal the cards I've been dealt and go with it....
~Chris
Monday, August 6, 2007
A Successful Holiday...
Yea, I have to say that that had been one of my better holidays to date. I usually dread the drive home, but this time I didn't. I came home, happy... tired, but happy... enjoyed the time with my parents. I normally can't last 3 or 4 days with them, but this was a great break and enjoyed the visit immensely. I spent WAY too much while I was back home, mostly on stuff that I needed.
I decided to come home a day early, mostly to skip the traffic, but I was just needing some space to myself... some alone time as it were. Getting home, starting to relax from the drive and creating another tornado that blew through my apartment. Driving around the city today, getting some groceries and just escaping the mess I created I came to... not really an epiphany, nor a realization... but a feeling, is probably the best way to put it.
I've moved all my life. Some people who have lived in one place can't fathom the experiences that I've had, and nor can I fathom the people who have lived in one place all their lives. I've been around the world basically... well, Canada and Western Europe anyway... and I can say that each city and town that I've lived in has each had its pro's and con's. I've moved so much that I can honestly say... for the longest time that I haven't had a "home town" to call home or somewhere where I have a history that I've come from. Only within the past 7 years have I called Edmonton my home town, I've got history there now, I've got a good friend base there and most of all... family.
Calgary is now my "home", and no, there isn't the phrase "for now" attached to it. Moving just about once a year jumping from job to job, career to career. I'm still quite young, but I need to start thinking more of a future, more of where I am headed so calling Calgary "home" was needed. So, driving around today... it felt good to be back "home" to be somewhere comfortable, familiar. I now know how mom and dad feel, after 37 years of uprooting everything and starting over and over and over. I also know how one can have a home town and a home. I'm fighting this feeling but I think I may have to accept instead of fight. I think, instead of calling Calgary "home" I should be calling it Home.
~Chris
I decided to come home a day early, mostly to skip the traffic, but I was just needing some space to myself... some alone time as it were. Getting home, starting to relax from the drive and creating another tornado that blew through my apartment. Driving around the city today, getting some groceries and just escaping the mess I created I came to... not really an epiphany, nor a realization... but a feeling, is probably the best way to put it.
I've moved all my life. Some people who have lived in one place can't fathom the experiences that I've had, and nor can I fathom the people who have lived in one place all their lives. I've been around the world basically... well, Canada and Western Europe anyway... and I can say that each city and town that I've lived in has each had its pro's and con's. I've moved so much that I can honestly say... for the longest time that I haven't had a "home town" to call home or somewhere where I have a history that I've come from. Only within the past 7 years have I called Edmonton my home town, I've got history there now, I've got a good friend base there and most of all... family.
Calgary is now my "home", and no, there isn't the phrase "for now" attached to it. Moving just about once a year jumping from job to job, career to career. I'm still quite young, but I need to start thinking more of a future, more of where I am headed so calling Calgary "home" was needed. So, driving around today... it felt good to be back "home" to be somewhere comfortable, familiar. I now know how mom and dad feel, after 37 years of uprooting everything and starting over and over and over. I also know how one can have a home town and a home. I'm fighting this feeling but I think I may have to accept instead of fight. I think, instead of calling Calgary "home" I should be calling it Home.
~Chris
Thursday, August 2, 2007
A lesson in History...
This week, as most of you who read my blog know, I have been on holidays (much needed or not, it was nice to just get away) for the past week. I've come on a mission to rescue some of my toys from growing up. After watching the latest Transformers movie, I felt a sudden hole in my own being and felt the need to reconnect with my youth.
My search isn't going so well, or as well as I had expected. After 20 years of moving and picking up and putting away, being shoved into a corner or in another box... my transformers have gone MIA. I have gone on a full scale search for these toys, my link to the past, my sole imagination growing up basically. I did find a few, a few have escaped to be found plus a few others that I knew were around. My first reaction was "AWESOME!!!" and "SUCCESS!!!" until it sunk in that... wait a minute... this isn't as awesome as I thought it once was. Something has happened to me in the past 15 to 20 years since I've seen them and now I wonder... is it worth bring them out and displaying them? I played with them when I was young, so they are kinda beat up and still thinking... HELL YEA!!!
So what HAS happened to me in the past 15 to 20 years? I can only think of one word, that hits us all hard, whether we like to admit it or not... REALITY. This hits us hard because we have to accept it. We don't necessarily lose our imagination growing up, but it grows up with us as we grow up. Things change, we lose a part of our youth basically. Hence the stuff we keep, or hold on to to remind us of that one time. In some ways I wish I still had that imagination I had growing up. It was very fertile, and plus moving as much as I did and not having the HUGE social structure as I was an only child, it was fantastic. I would marvel my parents as to what I would think of and how I was having fun. I miss those days, and unfortunately they will never to return, as I sit here thinking of how those toys have changed. Not changed physically, but just.... changed in how they are to me. Man, hours of fun, now put into 3 or 4 paragraphs in a blog.
I'm glad I've had this reunion with these toys... helps me remember where I've come from and who I've become growing up. Again, different times, different places, but ALL good memories. I'm still on the hunt for these, may be another visit or two but I'm putting the call out for them from dad, maybe he might be able to find them in his travels in the basement.
~Chris
My search isn't going so well, or as well as I had expected. After 20 years of moving and picking up and putting away, being shoved into a corner or in another box... my transformers have gone MIA. I have gone on a full scale search for these toys, my link to the past, my sole imagination growing up basically. I did find a few, a few have escaped to be found plus a few others that I knew were around. My first reaction was "AWESOME!!!" and "SUCCESS!!!" until it sunk in that... wait a minute... this isn't as awesome as I thought it once was. Something has happened to me in the past 15 to 20 years since I've seen them and now I wonder... is it worth bring them out and displaying them? I played with them when I was young, so they are kinda beat up and still thinking... HELL YEA!!!
So what HAS happened to me in the past 15 to 20 years? I can only think of one word, that hits us all hard, whether we like to admit it or not... REALITY. This hits us hard because we have to accept it. We don't necessarily lose our imagination growing up, but it grows up with us as we grow up. Things change, we lose a part of our youth basically. Hence the stuff we keep, or hold on to to remind us of that one time. In some ways I wish I still had that imagination I had growing up. It was very fertile, and plus moving as much as I did and not having the HUGE social structure as I was an only child, it was fantastic. I would marvel my parents as to what I would think of and how I was having fun. I miss those days, and unfortunately they will never to return, as I sit here thinking of how those toys have changed. Not changed physically, but just.... changed in how they are to me. Man, hours of fun, now put into 3 or 4 paragraphs in a blog.
I'm glad I've had this reunion with these toys... helps me remember where I've come from and who I've become growing up. Again, different times, different places, but ALL good memories. I'm still on the hunt for these, may be another visit or two but I'm putting the call out for them from dad, maybe he might be able to find them in his travels in the basement.
~Chris
Saturday, July 28, 2007
Thinking
It's something we all do. That's right... it's thinking. We all have our moments where we like to think, we are as individual in how we think and pretty much in what we think about in general. I would like to point out that there's stressing and thinking. We all pretty much stress about the same stuff, career, money, love etc etc etc... I guess we could be thinking about that stuff to, but I like to refer that as a stress more than anything. Personal opinion there, no specific science behind it really....
I'm on holidays now... took a week off so my landlord can work on my apartment, fix the leak in my shower basically... and, crossing fingers, get a new stand-up shower. The one he's got in there was from the 70's, yea that's right... a TIN shower. So, with it being so hot here in the good ol' Alberta, I had to drive 3.5 hours with my window down to remain sufficiently cool, and partially deaf when I get home. With that 3.5 hour drive, I had the (un) fortunate, depending on how you look at it, time to think about... stuff. As per the theme of my past posts... it's about relationships, dating... and you guessed it... me.
And what did I figure out? Lots of stuff lately, but more of a main point that I've been dating with out knowing what I want for a relationship. I know where I'd like to end up and what I'd like to have... but I think I'm just afraid of something... maybe just afraid of the commitment that I thought I wasn't before. Could also be I'm afraid of ending up with someone that I don't really want to be with, so I put up a front to break it off... could be... I don't know. What other scary thing did I figure out about myself? I'm too used to being alone... to find it hard to share my life with someone (I'm not completely sold on this theory, but I see small things in myself when I'm with someone).
So, how am I going to deal with this? I don't know. Simple as that... I don't. What I won't do though is settle for just anyone. What I'm also going to have to do is not be afraid to take a chance either and have more of an open mind. I think I'm afraid of the unknown... same problem as a lot of people I would assume. I'm just gonna have to do it... no matter what "it" is.
~Chris
I'm on holidays now... took a week off so my landlord can work on my apartment, fix the leak in my shower basically... and, crossing fingers, get a new stand-up shower. The one he's got in there was from the 70's, yea that's right... a TIN shower. So, with it being so hot here in the good ol' Alberta, I had to drive 3.5 hours with my window down to remain sufficiently cool, and partially deaf when I get home. With that 3.5 hour drive, I had the (un) fortunate, depending on how you look at it, time to think about... stuff. As per the theme of my past posts... it's about relationships, dating... and you guessed it... me.
And what did I figure out? Lots of stuff lately, but more of a main point that I've been dating with out knowing what I want for a relationship. I know where I'd like to end up and what I'd like to have... but I think I'm just afraid of something... maybe just afraid of the commitment that I thought I wasn't before. Could also be I'm afraid of ending up with someone that I don't really want to be with, so I put up a front to break it off... could be... I don't know. What other scary thing did I figure out about myself? I'm too used to being alone... to find it hard to share my life with someone (I'm not completely sold on this theory, but I see small things in myself when I'm with someone).
So, how am I going to deal with this? I don't know. Simple as that... I don't. What I won't do though is settle for just anyone. What I'm also going to have to do is not be afraid to take a chance either and have more of an open mind. I think I'm afraid of the unknown... same problem as a lot of people I would assume. I'm just gonna have to do it... no matter what "it" is.
~Chris
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Dating is really starting to take its toll...
In the past few weeks I have come in contact with some ladies and looked as things were starting to pick up for me... getting some dating in and maybe finding the "one." I just recently received another "thanx but no thanx" emails... which doesn't bother me anymore... I've gotten a bunch of them and it's useless to even dwell on it. Plus, it was only one date. She was a good looking woman and someone I could have probably gotten really into... first impressions, I was awestruck. But... time to move on, or as my good friend Nikki tells me... "NEXT!!!"
One thing I've learned from dating is learning more about me. Learning what I'm really looking for, what I really want and sometimes that can be quite scary. You figure you find what your looking for and yet, you keep wondering... is what I HAD what I wanted all along? It's really hard to say, because... and it's all happened to us, we get desperate for the physical part of the relationship and if it was good at first and died.... we fall back into that trap... but we talk our selves into "well, maybe things have changed... times are different, grown up..." whatever the reason is... but we talk ourselves into thinking like this. But sometimes it works... and works well, but I've honestly never really considered that to be a possibility. "If you love and let go, it will come back..." only in poetry and TV. Do I sound jaded???
I sat with a really good friend of mine today talking about the world and how things are and got on the topic of dating. The topic of "stop looking, and it'll fall into place." It has worked for some of my friends, but I mean... if you stop "looking" then aren't you in all respects not trying anymore? And how are you supposed to know when you don't even try? I've tried this aspect of dating and I just can't do it. I did take a month or two off from trying but I was still searching... So in actual fact... I just slowed down my search...
Dating is taking its toll on me... for real. I'm really getting tired of looking, trying to find that "one," trying to find what I want and who I want it with. Ideally, I'd like to come home tomorrow after work and find the woman of my dreams standing at my front door asking for directions or something and just happen to fall in love, happily ever after. Well, I know that will never happen, and I know that I'll never stop looking. Even though I'm tired of looking, I'm still going to. Why? It's because it's what I have to do... Just can't fall off a horse and not get back on again... You gotta search through the chaff to find the wheat (yea, I've used that once before, but I liked the analogy so I'm using it again). *Sigh*...
~Chris
One thing I've learned from dating is learning more about me. Learning what I'm really looking for, what I really want and sometimes that can be quite scary. You figure you find what your looking for and yet, you keep wondering... is what I HAD what I wanted all along? It's really hard to say, because... and it's all happened to us, we get desperate for the physical part of the relationship and if it was good at first and died.... we fall back into that trap... but we talk our selves into "well, maybe things have changed... times are different, grown up..." whatever the reason is... but we talk ourselves into thinking like this. But sometimes it works... and works well, but I've honestly never really considered that to be a possibility. "If you love and let go, it will come back..." only in poetry and TV. Do I sound jaded???
I sat with a really good friend of mine today talking about the world and how things are and got on the topic of dating. The topic of "stop looking, and it'll fall into place." It has worked for some of my friends, but I mean... if you stop "looking" then aren't you in all respects not trying anymore? And how are you supposed to know when you don't even try? I've tried this aspect of dating and I just can't do it. I did take a month or two off from trying but I was still searching... So in actual fact... I just slowed down my search...
Dating is taking its toll on me... for real. I'm really getting tired of looking, trying to find that "one," trying to find what I want and who I want it with. Ideally, I'd like to come home tomorrow after work and find the woman of my dreams standing at my front door asking for directions or something and just happen to fall in love, happily ever after. Well, I know that will never happen, and I know that I'll never stop looking. Even though I'm tired of looking, I'm still going to. Why? It's because it's what I have to do... Just can't fall off a horse and not get back on again... You gotta search through the chaff to find the wheat (yea, I've used that once before, but I liked the analogy so I'm using it again). *Sigh*...
~Chris
Saturday, July 14, 2007
Me and a dream...
So, lately I've been wondering what a guy, like me, should do with his time, where to spend his money and should include as a hobby. Well, looking at a bigger picture I'm wondering why I'm really sweating this really trivial stuff.
I'm reading a novel series by W.E.B. Griffin called the Honour Bound series. It's 3 books all about a WW2 OSS mission to disrupt u-boat replenishing in Argentine waters as, I'm unsure if it's fiction or real or not, Argentina is neutral. The main character, in the 2nd book, inherits a HUGE estancia (Spanish for ranch/farm) from his father (who unfortunately gets killed in the first 10 pages)... they go on to talk about ranch hands, houses for the employee's, and even a church plus a small grass runway. The ranch next door, is roughly 80,000 plus hectares. It's a good series and I've been enjoying this authors books and have started a collection. Thanks dad for introducing me to this author!!
So, where does this leave me and my dream? I don't imagine to have a spread that big, nor do I plan to have servants and my own church. But what I WOULD like to have is my own piece of sky, land... to be away from the big city and enjoy life to the fullest extent. I want to lead a peaceful existence where when you ask for help, someone doesn't have "other plans."
What am I talking about mainly... where do I plan to have this... piece of sky, land or whatever it is I dream of. Ideally, I'd love to have an average of roughly anywhere between 20 and 80 acers, around max, an hour away from a big city and maybe 20 to 10 minutes away from a small town. I want a homestead as well... modest naturally... I want to know what it's like to work hard for a living, to know what it's like to feel like I've accomplished something and feel proud and useful that I have. Along with the homestead, I'd like to have a couple of horses around, and maybe a small little hobby farm like sheep or something small or not. I also want a family of about 2 or 3, to teach them responsibilities and priorities.
Believe me when I say that I had a completely different direction to where this blog was going to go (I gave up calling it a *message thinggy*, it's easier to type blog... *sigh*)... but reading my book I realized that this had to take a seriously different direction. Now that I've covered about 2 of the 5 "W'"s and the 1 "H", now all that's left is Who, Where and When. Sad to say, I couldn't tell ya. I'm hoping to find myself a farm girl as she knows about hard work and could teach me a thing or two about it. Where? Well, land is cheaper the farther north you go... maybe Ft. Saskatchewan NE of Edmonton... closer to home and to mom and dad as well. Now, as for When... that's the tricky part. I'm in no real position to be buying land, especially since the oil sands are gaining and gaining in popularity, especially since they are discovering oil farther and farther south and east.
I don't know where I'm going to end up, or what's going to happen in my future, but I do believe in destiny and a reason for everything. It is a dream, and something I think I'll end up working towards, if not 20 acers, maybe 5 but this is totally something that I want to have or end up with. I don't know where anyone else's dream ends up but I hope they are as grand as ever and that your working towards them.
~Chris
I'm reading a novel series by W.E.B. Griffin called the Honour Bound series. It's 3 books all about a WW2 OSS mission to disrupt u-boat replenishing in Argentine waters as, I'm unsure if it's fiction or real or not, Argentina is neutral. The main character, in the 2nd book, inherits a HUGE estancia (Spanish for ranch/farm) from his father (who unfortunately gets killed in the first 10 pages)... they go on to talk about ranch hands, houses for the employee's, and even a church plus a small grass runway. The ranch next door, is roughly 80,000 plus hectares. It's a good series and I've been enjoying this authors books and have started a collection. Thanks dad for introducing me to this author!!
So, where does this leave me and my dream? I don't imagine to have a spread that big, nor do I plan to have servants and my own church. But what I WOULD like to have is my own piece of sky, land... to be away from the big city and enjoy life to the fullest extent. I want to lead a peaceful existence where when you ask for help, someone doesn't have "other plans."
What am I talking about mainly... where do I plan to have this... piece of sky, land or whatever it is I dream of. Ideally, I'd love to have an average of roughly anywhere between 20 and 80 acers, around max, an hour away from a big city and maybe 20 to 10 minutes away from a small town. I want a homestead as well... modest naturally... I want to know what it's like to work hard for a living, to know what it's like to feel like I've accomplished something and feel proud and useful that I have. Along with the homestead, I'd like to have a couple of horses around, and maybe a small little hobby farm like sheep or something small or not. I also want a family of about 2 or 3, to teach them responsibilities and priorities.
Believe me when I say that I had a completely different direction to where this blog was going to go (I gave up calling it a *message thinggy*, it's easier to type blog... *sigh*)... but reading my book I realized that this had to take a seriously different direction. Now that I've covered about 2 of the 5 "W'"s and the 1 "H", now all that's left is Who, Where and When. Sad to say, I couldn't tell ya. I'm hoping to find myself a farm girl as she knows about hard work and could teach me a thing or two about it. Where? Well, land is cheaper the farther north you go... maybe Ft. Saskatchewan NE of Edmonton... closer to home and to mom and dad as well. Now, as for When... that's the tricky part. I'm in no real position to be buying land, especially since the oil sands are gaining and gaining in popularity, especially since they are discovering oil farther and farther south and east.
I don't know where I'm going to end up, or what's going to happen in my future, but I do believe in destiny and a reason for everything. It is a dream, and something I think I'll end up working towards, if not 20 acers, maybe 5 but this is totally something that I want to have or end up with. I don't know where anyone else's dream ends up but I hope they are as grand as ever and that your working towards them.
~Chris
Tuesday, July 10, 2007
Me... and Facebook...
Facebook to me was inevitable. I'm sorry to say that it hasn't been one of the better things that I've ever done or signed up for. Regardless if it's free or the amount of people that you can get in contact with... it's evil. All intents and purposes... e-v-i-l.
Why do I say that? Well, I have come in contact with a number of people I've worked with in the past and have even gone to school with. It's nice to see that most of the people I remember from high school and from previous work experiences are doing quite well (some more than others *clears throat*).
Just so you know, the unfortunate part right now is that I'm going to rant mostly... so be forewarned. One thing that really "grinds my gears" is all these people who I've worked with/socialized with in the past, they will add you as a friend and you write a message to them on their wall and you receive nothing back. I know it's just a basic message saying "hey, haven't talked/seen you in a while, how's things going?" and get nothing back. I mean... wholy crap, if you had no intention of wanting to chat with me, then don't accept me as a friend on facebook.
I do realize that this is a fad, like MySpace or any other sites that are out there... but I mean... come on. How hard is it to reply? You briefly look on THEIR wall and you see that they are conversing with others, why not you? The only thing I could ever think of... and if you have an idea, please... feel free to share... is that they don't want to hurt your feelings. WHAT??!?!?!!! you say? Yes... it sucks to the point of... *ugh* or *sigh* but really... what CAN we do about it? Nothing. That's right... nothing. If you receive nothing back.... um... at all... then just remove them as a friend... because really... even if you haven't even received a joke from them in the "mass mail jokes" culture... then where do you really stand with that person(s).
Anyway... that's all I really had to say. For the most part, I don't have a problem with it... but it was just one little point that really got to me for some reason. I am happy though, to get in touch with some old friends and see how well they are doing for themselves. I do have my blog address posted on facebook (I hardly doubt anyone has read or will read this anyway) but if you have taken SOME initiative to take a peek... thanks!! :) And... LEAVE A MESSAGE ON MY WALL!!!...lol
Later
~Chris
Why do I say that? Well, I have come in contact with a number of people I've worked with in the past and have even gone to school with. It's nice to see that most of the people I remember from high school and from previous work experiences are doing quite well (some more than others *clears throat*).
Just so you know, the unfortunate part right now is that I'm going to rant mostly... so be forewarned. One thing that really "grinds my gears" is all these people who I've worked with/socialized with in the past, they will add you as a friend and you write a message to them on their wall and you receive nothing back. I know it's just a basic message saying "hey, haven't talked/seen you in a while, how's things going?" and get nothing back. I mean... wholy crap, if you had no intention of wanting to chat with me, then don't accept me as a friend on facebook.
I do realize that this is a fad, like MySpace or any other sites that are out there... but I mean... come on. How hard is it to reply? You briefly look on THEIR wall and you see that they are conversing with others, why not you? The only thing I could ever think of... and if you have an idea, please... feel free to share... is that they don't want to hurt your feelings. WHAT??!?!?!!! you say? Yes... it sucks to the point of... *ugh* or *sigh* but really... what CAN we do about it? Nothing. That's right... nothing. If you receive nothing back.... um... at all... then just remove them as a friend... because really... even if you haven't even received a joke from them in the "mass mail jokes" culture... then where do you really stand with that person(s).
Anyway... that's all I really had to say. For the most part, I don't have a problem with it... but it was just one little point that really got to me for some reason. I am happy though, to get in touch with some old friends and see how well they are doing for themselves. I do have my blog address posted on facebook (I hardly doubt anyone has read or will read this anyway) but if you have taken SOME initiative to take a peek... thanks!! :) And... LEAVE A MESSAGE ON MY WALL!!!...lol
Later
~Chris
Sunday, July 8, 2007
Where does a guy put his time and money???
Ok, so... I know I haven't written a blog in so long, and many of you haven't seen any real updates about what's been going on and how things are going... To be honest, I've had a real depressing month. There wasn't much that went on that I could joke and be jovial about. I refuse to write something negative or depressing on this blog and would like to keep it that way. Most of what I've had to say have been rants... not raves unfortunately. I haven't forgotten about my blog... just nothing really worth writing about lately.
So, a new month and new things to chat about. I've actually come up to quite a frustrating dilemma at the moment. I've come to a new hobby, of which I don't do enough, but enjoy what I do.... yes yes yes... it's the gun thing and I'm actually looking at a new weapon as we speak... although I will need to get my FAC/PAL before I do anything else, of which adds to my frustration. I'll elaborate...
I'm trying to find something that can occupy my time. I don't really have a woman to call my own, so I'm looking for a project to put my money and time into... something to be proud to say... "Yeeaaaaa.... I did that..." I have so much I WANT to do, but so little money, or even a place to do most of what I want to do. I've narrowed down my ideas to 4 things mostly (ok, thinking about it...5...lol). 3 require a place and money, and 2 is almost instantaneous gratification from where I sit now, financially and location wise (meaning, I can do most, if not all of it, in my apartment).
1. I've got a 1966 Chevy 2 that my dad and I own that I'd like to resto-mod into a sleeper (read: bigger motor, better drive train, all in a 4-door family car)
2. I have a friend who owns a dune buggy that doesn't require a whole lot of work, but needs a new motor (rebuild myself or buy a used motor just to get it running and driving) plus needs to be road legal. Princess Auto may have a lot of the stuff I need, but it all still requires a place and money to do it.
3. I want to get my class 6 license, ride motor bikes and eventually buy my own and maybe get out and meet some new people.
4. I have 2 bicycles that I want to customize and make it look cool and enjoy riding. Some of the parts are quite pricey but easier to work on and in the long run... more instantaneous gratification that it's done and can ride it asap... and can be done in my apartment.
5. Ok, the last but not least that's been running through my mind... my guns. Yea, I know... it's an expensive hobby, and to me, it's a lot of fun to go to the range and kill some paper targets. I'd like to expand my collection and eventually have my dad go with me to the range with me and have fun. Guns are expensive themselves, the ammunition isn't cheap either for the guns that I do have.
Those are the options that I've given myself. There is a TONNE of other shit that I would really love to do but those are the more attainable ones, the areas where I believe I would show most of my passion in. I've even thought of combining a couple of them together. I am coming to the realization that some of those won't happen right away, it may take years for me to get to where I want to be to even start some of these projects. And it would probably take years for me to get to some of them done. Which sucks because I REALLY want to do this NOW...lol Not tomorrow, or the next day... NOW!!..lol
Ah well, I was always told that listing things out really helps find out what you want to do and where you want to go. The pros and cons so to speak. And I think the decision has pretty much sorted it self out just now... *sigh* As to what I'm gonna do... you'll have to wait and see, 'cause really... I've only made a decision on what to do... what I'm gonna do next... well... that could be any ones guess really...
Oh, before I cut this novel off at it's knee's... I saw Transformers on Friday night.... man... if you ever watched that show religiously like I did when I was a kid... GO SEE IT... DO IT NOW!!! Oh yea... that brings me to point #6... the 52" Plasma including surround sound for the Transformers movie that I'm going to buy in the next year or so.... :D
Later
~Chris
So, a new month and new things to chat about. I've actually come up to quite a frustrating dilemma at the moment. I've come to a new hobby, of which I don't do enough, but enjoy what I do.... yes yes yes... it's the gun thing and I'm actually looking at a new weapon as we speak... although I will need to get my FAC/PAL before I do anything else, of which adds to my frustration. I'll elaborate...
I'm trying to find something that can occupy my time. I don't really have a woman to call my own, so I'm looking for a project to put my money and time into... something to be proud to say... "Yeeaaaaa.... I did that..." I have so much I WANT to do, but so little money, or even a place to do most of what I want to do. I've narrowed down my ideas to 4 things mostly (ok, thinking about it...5...lol). 3 require a place and money, and 2 is almost instantaneous gratification from where I sit now, financially and location wise (meaning, I can do most, if not all of it, in my apartment).
1. I've got a 1966 Chevy 2 that my dad and I own that I'd like to resto-mod into a sleeper (read: bigger motor, better drive train, all in a 4-door family car)
2. I have a friend who owns a dune buggy that doesn't require a whole lot of work, but needs a new motor (rebuild myself or buy a used motor just to get it running and driving) plus needs to be road legal. Princess Auto may have a lot of the stuff I need, but it all still requires a place and money to do it.
3. I want to get my class 6 license, ride motor bikes and eventually buy my own and maybe get out and meet some new people.
4. I have 2 bicycles that I want to customize and make it look cool and enjoy riding. Some of the parts are quite pricey but easier to work on and in the long run... more instantaneous gratification that it's done and can ride it asap... and can be done in my apartment.
5. Ok, the last but not least that's been running through my mind... my guns. Yea, I know... it's an expensive hobby, and to me, it's a lot of fun to go to the range and kill some paper targets. I'd like to expand my collection and eventually have my dad go with me to the range with me and have fun. Guns are expensive themselves, the ammunition isn't cheap either for the guns that I do have.
Those are the options that I've given myself. There is a TONNE of other shit that I would really love to do but those are the more attainable ones, the areas where I believe I would show most of my passion in. I've even thought of combining a couple of them together. I am coming to the realization that some of those won't happen right away, it may take years for me to get to where I want to be to even start some of these projects. And it would probably take years for me to get to some of them done. Which sucks because I REALLY want to do this NOW...lol Not tomorrow, or the next day... NOW!!..lol
Ah well, I was always told that listing things out really helps find out what you want to do and where you want to go. The pros and cons so to speak. And I think the decision has pretty much sorted it self out just now... *sigh* As to what I'm gonna do... you'll have to wait and see, 'cause really... I've only made a decision on what to do... what I'm gonna do next... well... that could be any ones guess really...
Oh, before I cut this novel off at it's knee's... I saw Transformers on Friday night.... man... if you ever watched that show religiously like I did when I was a kid... GO SEE IT... DO IT NOW!!! Oh yea... that brings me to point #6... the 52" Plasma including surround sound for the Transformers movie that I'm going to buy in the next year or so.... :D
Later
~Chris
Monday, May 21, 2007
My best May long yet....
So, you all read my "realization by chris" post, well I know have something to add to that. Kinda like a "Realizations by Chris... Part 2" only with something to add to it. So, my best friend Nathan read that post and he said that he had totally forgotten about it until I brought it up. Those were good days, and they were memorable days as well.
This weekend was no less memorable than any other cruise we've had, just that this one was done at the start of cruising season and my good first cruise in a little under 3 years I figure and after that first post... I was itching to get back in the saddle and head out back on Whyte, and get back with my riding partner. What made this cruise memorable? I gave Nathan a Mohawk. Damn, for my first Mohawk, it looks pretty damn good. And it made the cruise too, it made it a lot better and with more style than we could have hoped for.
The cruise was great, we stopped at a place called Dadeo's and had Catfish fingers with sweet potato fries, and for our final circuit on Whyte before we hit up 109th to get back over the river... we did what Nathan wanted to do... took up the outside lane for just us... we weren't too slow, not slow enough for people to pass us too quickly... And as per normal, we got the head turns from our bikes. That part I love... Both Nathan and I were surprised that, even though as out of riding condition I was, I was still able to keep up and I really wasn't all that sore the next day. My ass was though, but only 'cause it's gotten soft.
Your right Nathan, gonna have to keep riding, even if it is boring and only 20 min... gotta do it.
Later
~Chris
Wednesday, May 16, 2007
What to do, What to do...
So, here I sit wondering... what peaks my interest? What gets me moving, what puts a huge f*****n' smile on my face every time I do it? Well... women mostly, but I can't really classify that as a hobby for me... for some... yes. Me... no. What I'm really getting at here is... what can I do for a hobby???
I've tried to think of a couple of things, and have had some friends try to help me out with this but really... nothing has really grabbed me so to speak. I'll run a couple of ideas by you and let you know how they've failed in that respect other than that I've tried.
1. Singles Dog Walking: Well, for obvious reasons this one can't work. For one, you need a dog, of which I am lacking right off the bat. Can't have a dog so... yea.
2. R/C Car racing: Well, I did my research played with my R/C truck twice and found out how much work you had to do to it to keep it running good and if I even wanted to race it, how much MORE work I'd have to do to do. Plus, I put bad fuel in it once and blew the nitro motor. That was a $200 mistake. I've got, including the truck, $1200 wrapped up in it plus magazines that would go with it as well. I'll give it away for $600... I think if it were electric, I would have had a LOT more fun with it, but as it stands... seriously... $600... Any takers???
3. Computer geek: Ok, yea I enjoy playing around with my computer, enhancing it, having fun playing the odd game on it, turning it into the be-all-end-all media centre for my home needs, put movies on it, use it as my TV/recorder and everything. The only problem? It's not a very social hobby. I'm not bashing computer geeks or gamers or whatever else... but I like seeing the sunrise if I get up early, not playing a game all night deciding to go to bed at 7am. Sorry...
4. Guns: Yes, I said it and it's been in my rants before... I do enjoy playing around with guns and I go out about once a month with my buddy and put a bunch of rounds down range, the only problem, like #2, it's very expensive. For instance, my .303 English rounds for my Lee Enfield are $1 a round, and it takes longer to buy 20 rounds than it does to put them down range. My buddy told me that when he goes down range, he usually goes through $100... well, I gave him $40 that day and I do have a lot of fun when I do it... but I don't think it's something I could do ALL the time... ya know? If there was an out door range I could go to, that would be different... Plus I need a license, locks, lockers, permits, registrations... it all adds up.
These are just a few, and a few of the problems that I'm going through. I'm all ears at the moment for suggestions. One last one before I sign off for the evening... I do like my biking and manufacturing custom bicycles... I'm just lacking the place to do it, the people to do it with, and well.... money. All of the things above come with a price, some less than another but I'm trying to pay down some bills and well... it's tough to have fun when you can't afford some of the things you like to do.
Later
~Chris
I've tried to think of a couple of things, and have had some friends try to help me out with this but really... nothing has really grabbed me so to speak. I'll run a couple of ideas by you and let you know how they've failed in that respect other than that I've tried.
1. Singles Dog Walking: Well, for obvious reasons this one can't work. For one, you need a dog, of which I am lacking right off the bat. Can't have a dog so... yea.
2. R/C Car racing: Well, I did my research played with my R/C truck twice and found out how much work you had to do to it to keep it running good and if I even wanted to race it, how much MORE work I'd have to do to do. Plus, I put bad fuel in it once and blew the nitro motor. That was a $200 mistake. I've got, including the truck, $1200 wrapped up in it plus magazines that would go with it as well. I'll give it away for $600... I think if it were electric, I would have had a LOT more fun with it, but as it stands... seriously... $600... Any takers???
3. Computer geek: Ok, yea I enjoy playing around with my computer, enhancing it, having fun playing the odd game on it, turning it into the be-all-end-all media centre for my home needs, put movies on it, use it as my TV/recorder and everything. The only problem? It's not a very social hobby. I'm not bashing computer geeks or gamers or whatever else... but I like seeing the sunrise if I get up early, not playing a game all night deciding to go to bed at 7am. Sorry...
4. Guns: Yes, I said it and it's been in my rants before... I do enjoy playing around with guns and I go out about once a month with my buddy and put a bunch of rounds down range, the only problem, like #2, it's very expensive. For instance, my .303 English rounds for my Lee Enfield are $1 a round, and it takes longer to buy 20 rounds than it does to put them down range. My buddy told me that when he goes down range, he usually goes through $100... well, I gave him $40 that day and I do have a lot of fun when I do it... but I don't think it's something I could do ALL the time... ya know? If there was an out door range I could go to, that would be different... Plus I need a license, locks, lockers, permits, registrations... it all adds up.
These are just a few, and a few of the problems that I'm going through. I'm all ears at the moment for suggestions. One last one before I sign off for the evening... I do like my biking and manufacturing custom bicycles... I'm just lacking the place to do it, the people to do it with, and well.... money. All of the things above come with a price, some less than another but I'm trying to pay down some bills and well... it's tough to have fun when you can't afford some of the things you like to do.
Later
~Chris
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
Unfortunate Things...
My Aunt Daisey past May 7th, I learned today at a ripe old age of 102!! This is saddening as she was always close to us and held a special place in my heart for her and always will. She was a beautiful person and even though we never really got to chat much, her presence will be missed.
Until later
~Chris
Until later
~Chris
Saturday, May 12, 2007
A realization by Chris.
So, I was at Market Mall today in Calgarys north west sitting outside a clothing store for my girlfriend to buy and try stuff on looking at the people passing. What I realized was that I miss kickin' it with Nathan down on Whyte Ave sitting watching the world revolve by us. Seeing the short skirts, open toes, tight jeans, tight tops... seeing society walk past us. We sat for an hour that day on Whyte Ave on a bench outside the Baskin Robins (those of you who know Whyte, know where abouts I'm talking about), and I'll tell ya, it was just as good, if not better than watching TV. And then for a half hour at the Biker Tim's watchin' the world and the guys look at our pedal bikes and telling us stories when they played around with pedal bikes.
For those 5 to 10 min I sat there in the mall watching the people walk by me brought me back to that one evening in the latter stages of summer... forget the year. The only thing missing from Whyte Ave to Market Mall was, the homeless walking around, the cars, making sure no one walked off with our bikes... um... ok, so it was more than just one thing but I miss that day and the days that could have been more like it. The ride was fantastic, if not a little short but just hangin' out with my best friend... something we haven't done so much. It's something that I'd like to do again sometime. I need to get my cruiser out of my apartment for one, get my riding leggs back in shape and bring it up to Edm one day and just go for a ride.
Damn I miss those end of summer days.
~Chris
For those 5 to 10 min I sat there in the mall watching the people walk by me brought me back to that one evening in the latter stages of summer... forget the year. The only thing missing from Whyte Ave to Market Mall was, the homeless walking around, the cars, making sure no one walked off with our bikes... um... ok, so it was more than just one thing but I miss that day and the days that could have been more like it. The ride was fantastic, if not a little short but just hangin' out with my best friend... something we haven't done so much. It's something that I'd like to do again sometime. I need to get my cruiser out of my apartment for one, get my riding leggs back in shape and bring it up to Edm one day and just go for a ride.
Damn I miss those end of summer days.
~Chris
Wednesday, May 9, 2007
I should really update this thing more often...
OK, so, since the last time I was bored and cut off all my hair (got rave reviews by the way, except for mom... of course) I have gone to the doctor to get my back looked at. I've been progressively getting worse and worse back pain and it finally got toooo much about a month ago and finally saw a doctor about it. With countless liters of blood taken and over a dozen x-ray's they found..... um.... nothing. Other than the SLIGHT curvature of my spine... nothing was found. So... off to physio I go. Dreading the bill after 3 months of the recommended physio, I looked up my blue cross and found that after all claims are said and done... I'll end up $200 out of pocket. Fine by me, just so long as I get better SOON!! This back pain is killing me, but so far so good. Mostly strengthening exercise for my core area but still... it's needed.
On the other front... things have been quite boring. I'm getting out to the rifle range about once a month with a guy from work. I have a blast (pardon the pun.... you know what... don't pardon it... I meant every bit of it!!) and the usual saying afterwards is "another Sunday all shot to hell." I was going to take a picture and you'll see it below. Another thing to write about, my buddy at work brought in his son's little dirt bike one evening, learned how to ride a motorbike. Small yes... but a LOT of fun. Now I want to get my license. So many things, so much money and so little to spend. Oh well... I'll get there.
As for anything significant as of late... nuthin'. My mind turns on projects past and present, what I want to do, what I probably won't do, the toys I want... it never ends I tell ya. As of late?? I've got my mind workin' on a 2000/2002 Chevy Impala. Now, I know I'm going to get a bit of flack for buying an "old persons car" but ever since I saw it come out, I've wanted one. I've loved the looks and I figure, if Cops and cabs are driving it, it can't be all that bad of a car. I want a bigger car, something with better legs for the highways and easier on the back. It will be a little rougher on the fuel part, but I figure this is something that would work out well. I'm also thinking that since Valerie is going to be in Lake Louise for a bit more, as awesome as my little car is, it's very rough on the road.
Anyway, just thoughts for now... and for now... I'm out.
~Chris
Oh ya, as for that pic... Wasn't able to get one as we were just having fun putting bullets down rainge and playing with guns, so for now, I'll leave you with this:
On the other front... things have been quite boring. I'm getting out to the rifle range about once a month with a guy from work. I have a blast (pardon the pun.... you know what... don't pardon it... I meant every bit of it!!) and the usual saying afterwards is "another Sunday all shot to hell." I was going to take a picture and you'll see it below. Another thing to write about, my buddy at work brought in his son's little dirt bike one evening, learned how to ride a motorbike. Small yes... but a LOT of fun. Now I want to get my license. So many things, so much money and so little to spend. Oh well... I'll get there.
As for anything significant as of late... nuthin'. My mind turns on projects past and present, what I want to do, what I probably won't do, the toys I want... it never ends I tell ya. As of late?? I've got my mind workin' on a 2000/2002 Chevy Impala. Now, I know I'm going to get a bit of flack for buying an "old persons car" but ever since I saw it come out, I've wanted one. I've loved the looks and I figure, if Cops and cabs are driving it, it can't be all that bad of a car. I want a bigger car, something with better legs for the highways and easier on the back. It will be a little rougher on the fuel part, but I figure this is something that would work out well. I'm also thinking that since Valerie is going to be in Lake Louise for a bit more, as awesome as my little car is, it's very rough on the road.
Anyway, just thoughts for now... and for now... I'm out.
~Chris
Oh ya, as for that pic... Wasn't able to get one as we were just having fun putting bullets down rainge and playing with guns, so for now, I'll leave you with this:
Saturday, April 21, 2007
What happens when I get bored....
So... the hair question has come up a number of times with people telling me... "just take it all off." Well, it wasn't untill I actually listened to a guy at work... plus, it was my attempt to try and be a bit more spontainious at the same time. I looked at it and last wednesday, eating wings with my crew from work, I said... "what the hell... it's only hair, if I don't like it, I can grow it back." Thusly, here I am.
My friend Andrew (see his 04.14.2007 and 04.16.2007 posts) and has a post about his hair and what he should do with it. Through out the last 5 years, I have gotten shorter and shorter, tried manipulating it somewhat to a point where I thought it looked good, but then I still needed to maintaining it every week to two weeks. Well, this morning I pulled out the clippers, oiled them up and put blade to skin... unguarded. Now, I wish I had someone taking pictures of me as I was doing this because really... it's quite intresting the process I went through getting it buzzed off. Let me know what you think....
~Chris
Sunday, April 15, 2007
My name is Chris, and I have a problem...
OK, so if you've been reading through my posts, you'll notice that I said that I had gone on a Tim Horton's diet. Well, as an update of what's been going on.... yyeeaa... they need AA for Tim's coffee. The crappy part was that, and what justified the means, was it was Roll up the Rim time. Well, for a guy who wasn't supposed to be playing, I've had my best year to date... not keeping an accurate count, but at least 6 or 7 coffee's and 4 doughnuts.
There will be people out there going to argue with me, but I really find Tim Horton's coffee not all that great, unless I add the cream and sugar, and Tim's coffee is the only coffee I'll add cream/milk and sugar to. That should speak volumes to me and I've tried to stop, or slow down but DAMN, I swear they've put crack in their coffee. It's gotten quite bad to the point where I know the fastest Tim's places are (it's a cash only Tim's by the way) and what times to avoid them and have gotten to the point where some of the staff know what I want even before I show up.
This is going to be my best summer yet, with a really great girl who is quite active, and we have planned a hike up a mountain this summer and I'm looking forward to it. It's something that I wouldn't have done with anyone else, until Valerie came along. I'm hoping that my Tim's addiction will subside and me trying to get in better shape than I am now (although I figure that because it was the winter, I was putting on some "winter weight" for hibernation).
As for my addiction, I'm weaning myself off of it. I've gone from the extra large coffee milkshake creating "double double" to the large "single single" hoping that cuts back on the crap I take in and hopefully, a turn for the good to lose some weight. What ever happens, I'm hoping for the good and not the worst.
~Chris
There will be people out there going to argue with me, but I really find Tim Horton's coffee not all that great, unless I add the cream and sugar, and Tim's coffee is the only coffee I'll add cream/milk and sugar to. That should speak volumes to me and I've tried to stop, or slow down but DAMN, I swear they've put crack in their coffee. It's gotten quite bad to the point where I know the fastest Tim's places are (it's a cash only Tim's by the way) and what times to avoid them and have gotten to the point where some of the staff know what I want even before I show up.
This is going to be my best summer yet, with a really great girl who is quite active, and we have planned a hike up a mountain this summer and I'm looking forward to it. It's something that I wouldn't have done with anyone else, until Valerie came along. I'm hoping that my Tim's addiction will subside and me trying to get in better shape than I am now (although I figure that because it was the winter, I was putting on some "winter weight" for hibernation).
As for my addiction, I'm weaning myself off of it. I've gone from the extra large coffee milkshake creating "double double" to the large "single single" hoping that cuts back on the crap I take in and hopefully, a turn for the good to lose some weight. What ever happens, I'm hoping for the good and not the worst.
~Chris
Wednesday, April 11, 2007
When Girls don't put out!!
This was written by a guy... it's pretty damn smart.
I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their heart.
FOR EXAMPLE:
One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says,'I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me.'
I said, 'WHAT??!! What was that?!'
So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear...
'You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man.'
She responded to my puzzled look by saying, 'Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?'
Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep.
The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on several different very expensive outfits. She couldn't decide which one to take, so I told her we'd just buy them all. She wanted new shoes to compliment her new clothes, so I said, 'Lets get a pair for each outfit.'
We went on to the jewellery department where she picked out a pair of diamond earrings. Let me tell you... she was so excited. She must have thought I was one wave short of a shipwreck. I started to think she was testing me because she asked for a tennis bracelet when she doesn't even know how to play tennis.
I think I threw her for a loop when I said, 'That's fine, honey.' She was almost nearing sexual satisfaction from all of the excitement.
Smiling with excited anticipation, she finally said, 'I think this is all dear, let's go to the cashier.'
I could hardly contain myself when I blurted out, 'No honey, I don't feel like it.'
Her face just went completely blank as her jaw dropped with a baffled, 'WHAT?'
I then said, 'Honey! I just want you to HOLD this stuff for a while. You're just not in touch with my financial needs as a man enough for me to satisfy your shopping needs as a woman.'
And just when she had this look like she was going to kill me, I added,'Why can't you just love me for who I am and not for the things I buy you?'
Apparently I'm not having sex tonight either....but at least she knows I'm smarter than her.
I TOTALLY AGREE!!! Way to go BROTHER!!! STAY STRONG!!!
~Chris
I never quite figured out why the sexual urge of men and women differ so much. And I never have figured out the whole Venus and Mars thing. I have never figured out why men think with their head and women with their heart.
FOR EXAMPLE:
One evening last week, my girlfriend and I were getting into bed. Well, the passion starts to heat up, and she eventually says,'I don't feel like it, I just want you to hold me.'
I said, 'WHAT??!! What was that?!'
So she says the words that every boyfriend on the planet dreads to hear...
'You're just not in touch with my emotional needs as a woman enough for me to satisfy your physical needs as a man.'
She responded to my puzzled look by saying, 'Can't you just love me for who I am and not what I do for you in the bedroom?'
Realizing that nothing was going to happen that night, I went to sleep.
The very next day I opted to take the day off of work to spend time with her. We went out to a nice lunch and then went shopping at a big, big unnamed department store. I walked around with her while she tried on several different very expensive outfits. She couldn't decide which one to take, so I told her we'd just buy them all. She wanted new shoes to compliment her new clothes, so I said, 'Lets get a pair for each outfit.'
We went on to the jewellery department where she picked out a pair of diamond earrings. Let me tell you... she was so excited. She must have thought I was one wave short of a shipwreck. I started to think she was testing me because she asked for a tennis bracelet when she doesn't even know how to play tennis.
I think I threw her for a loop when I said, 'That's fine, honey.' She was almost nearing sexual satisfaction from all of the excitement.
Smiling with excited anticipation, she finally said, 'I think this is all dear, let's go to the cashier.'
I could hardly contain myself when I blurted out, 'No honey, I don't feel like it.'
Her face just went completely blank as her jaw dropped with a baffled, 'WHAT?'
I then said, 'Honey! I just want you to HOLD this stuff for a while. You're just not in touch with my financial needs as a man enough for me to satisfy your shopping needs as a woman.'
And just when she had this look like she was going to kill me, I added,'Why can't you just love me for who I am and not for the things I buy you?'
Apparently I'm not having sex tonight either....but at least she knows I'm smarter than her.
I TOTALLY AGREE!!! Way to go BROTHER!!! STAY STRONG!!!
~Chris
Sunday, April 8, 2007
Teenaged Mutant Ninja Turtles
Ok, so you all know the subject of this. I'm here to tell you, if you remember what it was like before, DO NOT SEE THIS!!! I was HUGE fan of the orignal show and the original movie, the LIVE version of it, and to see this abomination of the old show really hurt. In my opinion, you can not make an animated version of a movie that was once with live actors in costumes. I took my girlfriend with me and 3/4 through the movie, I appologized to her for bringing her to this movie. She giggled and whispered back "payback is a b***ch." I owe this girl BIG TIME!! I have a feeling that the next biggest mushy chick flick that comes out, she and I will be in line to see it.
I hope you see the nasty difference to what it is on here. I was VERY dissapointed, as were the people I went to see it with, girlfriend not withstanding. So, if you at all remember what the old one was like, my review... um, can there be a minus? Also... April O'Neil... has a very uncanny likeness to Laura Croft, if you get what I mean.
Yes, it did fill an evening, but... we'll never get that time back *sigh*
~Chris
Thursday, April 5, 2007
Internet dating and Me
Ok, so I'll start this subject off by saying that I've done my fair share of dating through the internet. Mostly because I have a hard time approaching women that I'm quite intrested/attracted to. I've tried meeting girls through friends, through work (did it and couldn't pull it off... um... twice) and when I did try to ask girls out, I would stumble out something that sounded audibly like a sentance and an offer but........ just no joy.
I told my mom that I have been doing the internet dating thing and she retorted "why not try meeting people normally?" I have been putting that thought through its paces through the past couple of years since I've started into the internet dating thing and have asked various people what "normal" dating is today. I've come to a conclusion that there really isn't a normal way anymore. The "normal" that was there back in the 60's, 70's and 80's before the internet revolution was going out to dances, meeting girls through friends and all that other b/s. Today our world is connected by a way that was hardly immagined WAY back in the mid to late 60's.
Todays "normal" IS the internet no matter what kind of spin you put on it. I've seen the "desperate house wife", the "i need a daddy for my baby", the "cookie cutter", the "depressed and in need," the "I'm too busy right now, but I pencil you in because still need to get laid" and to be a touch crude... the "ugly" and other variations that I haven't discovered yet. Frustration hitting it's all time high just reciently, and a half decent sale... yes... and maybe a little desperation and in need of a long term relationship (read: longer than 6 weeks here) I *sigh* went to eHarmony.
I did their 29 dimension personality profile, for which was a touch generic but pretty much bang on in my attitude and mentality (for those of you who want to try it, sign up for their free account and accept their emails... you don't get many, and wait for a 3 month sale, it's 3 months for the price of one). I waited for the sale because I figured that finding love wasn't worth $60USD. Just like other internet sites, you have to seperate the wheat from the chaff, some are into you and some aren't. I liked the fact that you didn't need to hire a PR firm and ask as many friends as your comfortable with to know that you're internet dating and to ask them to rate your "profile." It can be a touch embarassing sometimes, just so you know...lol
So, after going through that 29 dimention mind meld and having Dr. Warren try to hook you up, yes, he even doesn't find that special someone right away. Is it worth the cash for it? I guess it's all what your willing to pay in the long run, right??
I told my mom that I have been doing the internet dating thing and she retorted "why not try meeting people normally?" I have been putting that thought through its paces through the past couple of years since I've started into the internet dating thing and have asked various people what "normal" dating is today. I've come to a conclusion that there really isn't a normal way anymore. The "normal" that was there back in the 60's, 70's and 80's before the internet revolution was going out to dances, meeting girls through friends and all that other b/s. Today our world is connected by a way that was hardly immagined WAY back in the mid to late 60's.
Todays "normal" IS the internet no matter what kind of spin you put on it. I've seen the "desperate house wife", the "i need a daddy for my baby", the "cookie cutter", the "depressed and in need," the "I'm too busy right now, but I pencil you in because still need to get laid" and to be a touch crude... the "ugly" and other variations that I haven't discovered yet. Frustration hitting it's all time high just reciently, and a half decent sale... yes... and maybe a little desperation and in need of a long term relationship (read: longer than 6 weeks here) I *sigh* went to eHarmony.
I did their 29 dimension personality profile, for which was a touch generic but pretty much bang on in my attitude and mentality (for those of you who want to try it, sign up for their free account and accept their emails... you don't get many, and wait for a 3 month sale, it's 3 months for the price of one). I waited for the sale because I figured that finding love wasn't worth $60USD. Just like other internet sites, you have to seperate the wheat from the chaff, some are into you and some aren't. I liked the fact that you didn't need to hire a PR firm and ask as many friends as your comfortable with to know that you're internet dating and to ask them to rate your "profile." It can be a touch embarassing sometimes, just so you know...lol
So, after going through that 29 dimention mind meld and having Dr. Warren try to hook you up, yes, he even doesn't find that special someone right away. Is it worth the cash for it? I guess it's all what your willing to pay in the long run, right??
So... Good luck to those still in the hunt!!
~Chris~
P.S.-> A word from the wise, no matter HOW many pictures you get, they still look different in person, so meet within 2 weeks, but that's just a personal opinion there.
Monday, March 26, 2007
Go Ahead... Make My Day...
Ok, so here I am again, not much to report since the last time except some small time b/s. Mostly for stuff later on in my message thingy things. I went out on sunday to the shooting range with my buddy Tony from work. For those of you who know me well, but not quite that well enough? Yes, there are guns in our family and yes, I am going to inherit them from my dad. Dad no longer hunts or shoots for that matter and figured that since there's a guy at work who likes to go to the shooting range, I figured it would be something in common with someone at work to go and do stuff with.
So, here I sit with a sore shoulder from a recoil I wasn't all that expecting. The last gun I had fired... well, let me rephrase that as the ONLY weapon I've every fired in my life was a .22 calibre gun WWWAAAYYY back in '90/'91 when I had a brief stint in cadets. We basically fired the same weapons as dads only they had a .22 conversion. The weapon I fired?? A Lee - Enfeild Mark 3 .303 caliber... damn that sounded like a cannon going off compared to the guys who were beside us. The stamp on it was 1917 and man... what a good looking weapon. It brought a little bit of attention to the people around us seeing a beautifully kept weapon such as that. If I decided to sell it, it won't fetch much, but it now has more sentimental value in it than anything else.
When we got in there, there was a guy beside us sport shooting .22's and it was like small little slaps, he had bigger weapons with him that he shot once or twice for fun... but when I brought out my .303.... man... it was LOUD. Next time I go, even though I used the range ear muffs, I'll need to bring some ear plugs with me to double up on the ear protection. I doubt it would have been so loud in the open, but in a small enclosed space... but DAMN IT WAS FUN!!! I have to say, that this is one of the CHEAPER hobbies I have delved into. At a little over/under a $1/round... 20 rounds doesn't go very far fun wise.
Now, I thought I knew what I was doing and what I had to do, and there is no such thing as a stupid question, but I felt quite dumb asking the simplest of questions when it came to even loading my weapon. I guess, that the more I go out and the more I do, the more confident I'll feel when firing my weapon. Getting back to the recoil of this gun. It put me back a little... I won't fib here. I wasn't expecting the recoil that came from it... So, putting 3 or 4 rounds down range I needed to steady myself. After seeing my buddy Tony put a few rounds down range and got into a good pose to cushion himself and get a good round off (he's the one who put it in the center mass, CX), I figured I could give it a try. Got a good position, steadied my self and sent a round down range, and in the instant I pulled the trigger, the 4x scope that fits on this gun came back and the top of the scope hit my eyebrow. No broken skin, or black eye... but its still a little tender. And yes... I did learn my lesson and won't be doing that for a while.
Just for the record... out of the 20 rounds that went down range, 17 hit the target area and 15 would have actually hit something.
Later
~Chris
Monday, March 5, 2007
Edmonton International Carshow and other stuff...
So, here it is, the Edmonton International Car Show. Yes I know there wasn't much to look at this year and it was surprisingly depressing seeing all the cars and the women I couldn't afford. It was a healthy mix of dates (more on this later), husbands and wives, two guys out looking at cars for a future buy. Now, I've been to this type of car show a number of times and each time I've lost my intrest in these kinds of "dog and poney" shows. I have had no intrest in buying a car lately let alone a new car, but I must admit. It was a good time to get out and spend time with the "old man." There were SOME good looking cars there, but NO Viper or Viper concept, it's nice to see that Ford comes out with a concept or two, the polished aluminum Shelby GTR and the new Bronco. GM had their new H3 truck concept (looks a LOT like the old Jeep Comache based on the Jeep XJ Cherokee line). Those were the only notables to mention there. I saw the two cars I wanted to see, my Mini Cooper S Ralley edition (I would show the car but there were 2 people sitting in the front seat that I didn't know so I won't show) and my Infinity FX4.5. And that ladies and gentleman was it. Sure they had the Fararri's, the Bentlies, the Aston Martin's but really... It's nice to drule and all, but I've driven them in Gran Tourismo 4 and they really aren't all that impressive of a car :P
Now onto the dating aspect of this kind of event. I saw a LOT of guys bringing their girlfriends with them (dragged or not) to look at all the "baller" cars and all that stuff. Now, I have to talk this through because I saw a lot of bored lookin' girls walkin' around that show saturday night. And I'm talkin' about the pouty *I really don't want to be here* face because really, even I would say... they all look the same. If your girlfriend is the type of "it's blue, has 4 wheels, I'm good" type... then don't bring her. Go with your buddies and take her out afterwards. These were huge halls and even dad and I took us 2.5 hours to breeze through. We saw everything we needed to see, sat in cars that we wanted to sit in. Fun all around. If your girl wants to go with you, PLEASE make sure she doesn't wear anything with heels. It's a HUGE show and LOTS of things to see so after about the 30 to 45 min mark (unless she's a bubble head princess, no sence no feeling, rt?) you'll probably be hearing the "are we almost done yet?" because really, they do, all look the same in the end right? They all have 4 wheels, funky colors, and fun options. But beyond that...
The girls there were plentiful, tight jeans, all lookin' tight and pretty but really... really... unattainable. And yes, unless they and their partner, were looking for a new vehicle were giving that pouty *I really don't want to be here* face. Again, you can only see so many BMW's, Cadillac's, Audi's... well... I'm sure you're catching on by now. I would have taken pic's of these girls but I would have looked highly suspicious taking pictures of girls that were no where near cars. On our last round of Hall D where all the exotics were, the Edmonton Grand Prix models were there. And I was astonished to see that a majority of them were on the more offensive side of ugly. That's right, I did say, offensive. These girls did not look good at all. All gooped up, way too tanned and well... I'm sure the lycra uniforms/outfits they wore weren't all that comfie either, or were they flattering to the eye (think hooters girls and how bad those short shorts look).
As for the other stuff. Op Red Tape is going smoothly, except for my trip to Edmonton and my impending purchace of another chopper/lowrider bicycle but that will give me lots of fun for the upcoming summer. I'm hoping to find myself a cruising partner but again... has remained yet to be seen.The No Tim's diet is... well... struggeling. Me going on evenings this week (again, yet another strike against my no tim's diet) doesn't help as at 10pm I need a small pick-me-up and some fresh air, so off to Tim's I go. Anyway, that's it for now
~Chris
Tuesday, February 27, 2007
DAMN Tim Hortons!!! DAMN THEM ALL TO HECK!!!
I really picked the wrong time to lay off the double doubles. I realized mid last week that it's "RRRRRRRRRRoll Up The Rim to Win"season again. My, it sure came up quite fast this year didn't it. I usually do my part to boost their profits in order to win as much as a free doughnut or coffee (and yes, sometimes I smile and do a dance when I get a free coffee/doughnut) just to see if I can win all my money back in either, what is it this year, one of 500 prizes of $1000, one of 100 Panasonic 42" Plasma TV's, one of 10,000 iPod Nano's or one of 30 Toyota Hybrid Camry's (personally I'd rather have a BBQ or one of those nasty Shwinn Tim's bicycle's than an iPod, mine sucks and has corrupted and need to reformat every time I try to load music DON'T BUY THOSE!!!).
Now, I say the wrong time because since I've started in this Aircraft Manufacturing industry, I have gained a bountiful 30lb's and an activity level to do anything that would warrant me gaining that much weight. I can't say I've made some good choices either but damn... I would have thought that there would have been more activity than what I'm doing now. Regardless of the fact, I'm on debt reduction mode (yes, lots of KD, hot dogs, cereal and peanut butter are quite visible in my, quite near, future) so I can pay down my debt the quickest way possible. I'm just getting tired of always trying to get by... so, I'll cut down my play time for a bit and put some cash down on my bills. Firstly is calling Telus and getting my bills reduced.
I'm also getting tired of buying new pants to replace the ones that have hardly been worn to begin with. So, I'm going on a No Tim's diet and only having ONE repeat ONE coffee per week (plus it helps with the debt reduction b/s). So... Operation RED TAPE has officially been launched, I'm going to cut this red tape, I figure I can get rid of most of this debt in 2 years baring any complications that RED TAPE hasn't been planned for. Other than hooking or selling crack on the corner... this is what must be done.
So, after all has been said and done, Tim Hortons can go to heck as I drive by any number of 6 Tim's places, either the one in the Esso station or the restaurants themselves. I'll choke down more water if I have to... after all... water is free... to some point I guess.
~Chris
Now, I say the wrong time because since I've started in this Aircraft Manufacturing industry, I have gained a bountiful 30lb's and an activity level to do anything that would warrant me gaining that much weight. I can't say I've made some good choices either but damn... I would have thought that there would have been more activity than what I'm doing now. Regardless of the fact, I'm on debt reduction mode (yes, lots of KD, hot dogs, cereal and peanut butter are quite visible in my, quite near, future) so I can pay down my debt the quickest way possible. I'm just getting tired of always trying to get by... so, I'll cut down my play time for a bit and put some cash down on my bills. Firstly is calling Telus and getting my bills reduced.
I'm also getting tired of buying new pants to replace the ones that have hardly been worn to begin with. So, I'm going on a No Tim's diet and only having ONE repeat ONE coffee per week (plus it helps with the debt reduction b/s). So... Operation RED TAPE has officially been launched, I'm going to cut this red tape, I figure I can get rid of most of this debt in 2 years baring any complications that RED TAPE hasn't been planned for. Other than hooking or selling crack on the corner... this is what must be done.
So, after all has been said and done, Tim Hortons can go to heck as I drive by any number of 6 Tim's places, either the one in the Esso station or the restaurants themselves. I'll choke down more water if I have to... after all... water is free... to some point I guess.
~Chris
Monday, February 26, 2007
In our lives for a reason....
So, I got this message from a really good friend of mine. She's an awesome person and we have a lot of fun together. She's not normally one to send forwards but I'm glad she sent this one. It's all about the people in our lives and how they come to us...
"People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime."
I thank those who are/were a part of my life at any stage and in future stages who have helped me grow into who I am today
~Chris
"People come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. When you know which one it is, you will know what to do for that person. When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed. They have come to assist you through a difficulty, to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally or spiritually. They may seem like a godsend and they are. They are there for the reason you need them to be. Then, without any wrongdoing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end. Sometimes they die. Sometimes they walk away. Sometimes they act up and force you to take a stand. What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilled, their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and now it is time to move on.
Some people come into your life for a SEASON, because your turn has come to share, grow or learn. They bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done. They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it, it is real. But only for a season.
LIFETIME relationships teach you lifetime lessons, things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation. Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas of your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being a part of my life, whether you were a reason, a season or a lifetime."
I thank those who are/were a part of my life at any stage and in future stages who have helped me grow into who I am today
~Chris
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Do you have it???
If you have it, you don't need it
If you need it, you don't have it
If you have it, you need more if it
If you have more if it, you don't need less of it
You need it to get it
And you certainly need it to get more of it
But if you don't already have any of it to begin with
You can't get any of it to get started, which means
You really have no idea how to get it in the first place, do you
You can share it... sure
You can even stock pile it if you like, but you can't fake it.
Wanting it, needing it, wishing for it,
The point is, if you've never had any of it, ever...
People just seem to know
If you need it, you don't have it
If you have it, you need more if it
If you have more if it, you don't need less of it
You need it to get it
And you certainly need it to get more of it
But if you don't already have any of it to begin with
You can't get any of it to get started, which means
You really have no idea how to get it in the first place, do you
You can share it... sure
You can even stock pile it if you like, but you can't fake it.
Wanting it, needing it, wishing for it,
The point is, if you've never had any of it, ever...
People just seem to know
Friday, February 23, 2007
Choices Choices Choices, and some other stuff...
Ok, so here I am faced with another nasty ass'd dilemma. Just when I had thought I had made a choice to stick where I'm at... I find out that one of the guys my dad went to Bosnia with works with the city and they are in serious need of class 3 drivers and that any time I'm ready to switch... ARG!!! and for those of you who know anything about me, I'm horrible at making decisions... And just when I thought I had figured this one out.
So, on to other things. Why is it hard to date??? I've got numerous girls who are friends who are wondering why I am still single. I mean really... I think the one who should be asking that question is the man writing this message thinggy (thought I was gonna say blog weren't ya??... :P). So, just about everyone has told me that I should be married/steady relationship like, but really... my longest relationship of ANY type is no more than say... oh.... 5 weeks... and that would be stretching it a bit. Is it also wrong that I'm just starting to figure out how to date? At 27, you would have thought that I would have had that all figured out by high school.
Here's how things are looking. I've done the Internet thing... almost to death. There's a little cutie that I've been talking to at my regular Tim's and I've been wanting to ask her out but I just can't spit it out. Arg... that pisses me off mostly 'cause I so want to do it... but can't...lol I'm not alone in the asking girls out, that makes me feel a little bit better but doesn't solve the fact that I'm not outgoing enough to ask someone out. I just can't ask someone I don't know out... that I can't do... I need to talk with them for a bit and find out about them... I mean... what if they are dealing crack on the weekends? Or turning tricks to pay for college.
Anyway, I may have to face the fact that I'll have to meet someone like myself, not as outgoing and likes to hang inside and watch the Discovery channel for hours on end because we don't want to get too involved in anything out side our front door. Not that I'm opposed to sitting at home some days, but I really am wanting to get outside and enjoy life and start having some fun. As much fun as MSN friends are, they are online and I'm trying to get OUT of the house. The past day and a bit, I've been looking at joining a pay internet site, just because I am just figuring out this whole dating thing. And who knows... I pimp myself for a little under a month, and if it goes good, then I can keep going... but until then, for those of us who have done the Plenty of Fish thing.... I'm sorry. Most have had good luck, but I... have not.
That's how things stand for now... Later!!
So, on to other things. Why is it hard to date??? I've got numerous girls who are friends who are wondering why I am still single. I mean really... I think the one who should be asking that question is the man writing this message thinggy (thought I was gonna say blog weren't ya??... :P). So, just about everyone has told me that I should be married/steady relationship like, but really... my longest relationship of ANY type is no more than say... oh.... 5 weeks... and that would be stretching it a bit. Is it also wrong that I'm just starting to figure out how to date? At 27, you would have thought that I would have had that all figured out by high school.
Here's how things are looking. I've done the Internet thing... almost to death. There's a little cutie that I've been talking to at my regular Tim's and I've been wanting to ask her out but I just can't spit it out. Arg... that pisses me off mostly 'cause I so want to do it... but can't...lol I'm not alone in the asking girls out, that makes me feel a little bit better but doesn't solve the fact that I'm not outgoing enough to ask someone out. I just can't ask someone I don't know out... that I can't do... I need to talk with them for a bit and find out about them... I mean... what if they are dealing crack on the weekends? Or turning tricks to pay for college.
Anyway, I may have to face the fact that I'll have to meet someone like myself, not as outgoing and likes to hang inside and watch the Discovery channel for hours on end because we don't want to get too involved in anything out side our front door. Not that I'm opposed to sitting at home some days, but I really am wanting to get outside and enjoy life and start having some fun. As much fun as MSN friends are, they are online and I'm trying to get OUT of the house. The past day and a bit, I've been looking at joining a pay internet site, just because I am just figuring out this whole dating thing. And who knows... I pimp myself for a little under a month, and if it goes good, then I can keep going... but until then, for those of us who have done the Plenty of Fish thing.... I'm sorry. Most have had good luck, but I... have not.
That's how things stand for now... Later!!
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